bitofftoomuch
hold onto those who accept your messy self
- Jul 1, 2024
- 91
I just worry that if I take SN or whatever the last half hour of my life will just be me reviewing all the reasons I CTB'd and fearing death. I'd like it to be more... I dunno, pleasant? Maybe it's possible to remember the few good moments in my life, though I worry it would trigger my SI.
...who am I kidding? I don't want to die. I don't want to be on this forum. I want my problems to go away and my life to get better; I keep crossing my fingers that ctbing would somehow be something I could find that hope in, but it's just nonsense, there's no secret passageway to happiness.
...who am I kidding? I don't want to die. I don't want to be on this forum. I want my problems to go away and my life to get better; I keep crossing my fingers that ctbing would somehow be something I could find that hope in, but it's just nonsense, there's no secret passageway to happiness.