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hello, let me get straight to the point.
i was talking to a girl again, after like a year now, when we first met at work, she told me her boyfriend/ex had passed away to lung cancer, time went on, it went from just normal friends to platonic love, still friends tho, we then get to being more than just friends and more than platonic love, she tells me shes not allowed to date anyone til she moves out of her parents home, and she has to hide me from her family, including sister, brother and so on.
we had a great time for about a month now, laughing, loving eachother and more, i know thats not that long of a time but she was basically everything to me because i dont keep friends due to other mental problems that i will not discuss in this post.
we started talking about how we'd get married, have 3 cats, live together, she works i work and what not.
yesterday, she said her brother is in her room she has to hide me because hes on her pc and stuff, blocked and archived my chats and stuff, felt kind of wrong and i was worried but ok, ill wait, she started messaging me on the session messenger that i had her get bc its cute i like it and she said her brother saw the messages and he snitched to her mother, her mother saw our messages about love and her mother doesnt want her to have contact to me again.

today, someone called "So tired" messaged me on whatsapp asking who i am, i was confused, said check my about me, i see her name in it.
what happened there is that she lied about her boyfriend/ex passing away, he never died.
her brother was never in her room, it was him being confused on why shes so distant, he told me he saw our messages and made her block me.
she cheated on him with me, i feel horrible, hes confused and im confused, she blocked me everywhere now and shes still together with him, im still friends with him currently, he said to me and her that im a pretty chill person and im cool, i feel empty and abandoned, im at my emotional limit, way over it.
i feel like i was loved at first, then knowingly hidden from him, then removed and cut off when i was found by him.
he has her address and everything and basically, hes making her stay with him, "if you think thats the way im going ur wrong, id rather try a 1000 times with u than settle with another girl" is what he said and she showed me.

i dont know ill just try to live with it i guess and shove this to the back of my brain and try to not look back, i do keep opening her profiles and everything out of reflex and id love to talk to someone.
 
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That's horrible. I'm so sorry about that. I think most people would feel the same way as you. It's not weird to have an existential crisis after that betrayal
 
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