anonymousapple
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- Jul 3, 2020
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I'm just curious because anytime I've tried venting about my problems I do hear a lot about "you're so young, you have so much stuff you can do"
That is pretty young actually. Young people are impulsive. That doesn't mesh well with ctb.
The brain isn't fully developed until 25. Ctb before your brain is finished is like flipping the game board.So OP is automatically impulsive because of age and can't possibly have thought this out?
If OP has been venting to others, then reason dictates it's not an impulse.
Once I get the materials, I'm going through with it, it's not going to be an impulse thing and I've been considering it since I was 16, and got more serious about it at 19That is pretty young actually. Young people are impulsive. That doesn't mesh well with ctb.
YOURE TELLING OP TO "SNAP OUT OF IT". This is such an unhelpful thing to say.That is pretty young actually. Young people are impulsive. That doesn't mesh well with ctb.
It's also very invalidating. It invalidates the OP to his/her thoughts and reasons to want to ctb which also pretty much says that they're not really entitled to those feelings -- because they're still "young"YOURE TELLING OP TO "SNAP OUT OF IT". This is such an unhelpful thing to say.
Your story represents the problem of "too young to ctb" so well. You have endured more pain and suffering in the short time you lived than most people do in +70 years. It's so sad but it is the way it is.Long story short I've had an incredibly fucked up life, a lot of things happened, and I had to survive homelessness, and nowadays I'm just trying to live a normal life with severe anhedonia and BPD and I'm really just tired of surviving. I've tried working out and even became a gym rat for a while, I've tried tennis and basket ball, music, so many other things, one thing that's stuck with me my entire life is video games but I can't even enjoy that anymore.
im hella lot younger then u and I don't plan on living for another month so don't worry u cant be that fucked upI'm just curious because anytime I've tried venting about my problems I do hear a lot about "you're so young, you have so much stuff you can do"
On top of this the sheer fact that nobody asks to be here I don't believe people should be forced to wait until some magic number to be able to end their life. It's an unfortunate situation and I feel what you said. If someone is truly suffering after so long I believe it should be their decision.My first attempt was at 17, now I'm 26 with a "fully developed" brain and not a thing has changed about my life. Only the fact that I somehow managed to ruin it even further and my health issues are getting unbearable.
Not to say that this is what always happens, in fact, I sincerely believe that most people have a real chance of recovery and manage to live an amazing life even after feeling extremely suicidal in their teen or young adult years. the real question is, what do you want with your life? is it worth the effort? you may think that you are too young to die, but following that logic then are not too young to suffer?
the only thing that I can tell you is that an impulsive decision of this magnitude is never a good thing. and you are the only one who can reach a conclusion about it, so think about it thoroughly, make a list of pros and cons, read about both recovery and people who didn't make it. It's your body and your life,only you can judge your own suffering regardless of how young or old you may be.
And that thing that some people are saying about the brain hitting a magic number at 25 is kinda bullshit, that's more of an estimate rather than a real quantifiable answer. Some people finish their development very early in their 20's while some others can get into their early 30's with a brain that's still in development. just like some people stop growing early and some others are still growing well into their 20's, every human is different when it comes to their genes and environment.