That's a tough time period. There's no way you can be seeing things clearly now, and needing time to compose yourself is fully understandable.
If your life was nearly perfect, and you were capable of love and friendship, then that's what you live for, even if it's a new phase of your life and you need a new friend and new girlfriend. I'm glad you still have some support.
For now, talk it out, vent, and work on your grief rather than planning the rest of your life.
But I don't like the new phase.. the problem is I've never had to deal with crisis or hard situations and now everything's comes together.. it's too much for me to handle.. all I want is my old life back..
Thanks for reading & answering!
What's left: a good where people admire and love me, a second best friend and a good friend where the contact is mostly only online.. a brother who is always there for me..
you still have these lights
Sorry "a good" meant a "good job" I'm a male nurse.. Yeah I know I should appreciate the things I still have, but unfortunately it's not enough for me to be happy…
"What I'm living for?"
I see this as the most important question in life, but that only can be answered by each individual in regards to themselves. If you look at what you have in life right now and feel it's not enough, then you need to consider what is important to you that you don't have and work towards that. People that are already out of your life may not be something you can change, but the value of having someone to love or building friendships are all things you can put effort into.
The friend I've lost is a childhood friend who I know since 25 years.. I'm sure I can't find that in someone else, that's the problem..
For yourself and for what's about to come. I am very sorry that you lost people who were dear to you and I can sincerely relate to that, but there are more relationships and values that you have not yet experienced.
I know there is a possibility to gain new friendships or a relationship.. but that friendship was a childhood friend, such things you can't get any day again.. and that girl was everything I could have wish for, same Probleme, there are plenty of girl out there but not in the way my girlfriend was… we had the same interests, she was a gaming girl, also in nursing job, same thoughts of the futures, everything combined I can't find in any other woman..
Thanks for everything reading it and trying to comfort me or answering