Is it bad that I don’t care about the effect my ctb will have on anyone?

[sserafim]

Is it bad that I don't care about whether or not anyone will be sad if I ctb? I hate to say but I don't care about how it'll impact other people, it's my life, not theirs.

 

[missmyworld]

Others will likely only notice if you were on good terms with them prior, but nothing makes you a bad person for that. You have freedom of will when it only effects you.

 

[Captive_Mind515]

Yes, you're a terrible person and you're going straight to hell...

Nah, I'm just kidding. You should probably try to minimised the impact on people around you if possible. But you're not obligated to care too much, if you think people don't reciprocate the same towards you. But I wouldn't deliberately traumatise anyone if you can avoid it. But that's just my perspective, everyone feels different about their ctb I guess.

 

[Final_Choice]

It's your life like you said, you should have full control of it, including the decision to CTB even if that goes against others. Others may be sad but that's not an aspect you can control since it's their life and how they feel, but at the same time they can't control how you feel about anything.

 

[walkingdead2023]

Is it bad that I don't care about whether or not anyone will be sad if I ctb? I hate to say but I don't care about how it'll impact other people, it's my life, not theirs.

It's your life and I agree with you not "caring" about the after math.

My mother's cousin suffered her whole life from ptsd after her husband died by suicide. It will negatively impact Loved ones specially parents and this will never end. Everything can upset our loved ones like losing our job or getting Covid not just death. I would say writing a note to give closure will help because they deserve to know it's not them or it's not their fault. I'm planning on writing a letter to explain that it's none fault and I love them or make it looks like accident. That's my problem I'm very responsible and I care about others feelings and maybe that's why I hate my life

 

[WhiteRabbit]

I think it depends on what type of situation you're in.

 

[SeaBreeze]

I'm surprised that I'm still living currently. I assumed I'd pass on a few years ago, therefore I'm not feeling guilty about future occurrences, but no plans have been made or considered...yet

 

[FuneralCry]

No, especially as it isn't like anything could matter to us once we no longer exist. Everybody has to die someday, death is very inevitable and normal, if people don't wish for others to die then they simply shouldn't procreate in the first place.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

No, it isn't bad. Like you say, it's your life and yours alone

 

[Unknown21]

Ofc no, it's your life and u can do whatever you want whith it.

 

[CoffeeN]

If others * care for u then leave them a voice note or something like that. If others* don't care , it's fair deal

 

[Linda]

Perhaps you are over-analysing things. Your primary responsibility is to yourself. If you can also find a way to look after other people, that's great but it comes second.

 

[Deleted member 65988]

Right there with you although I accepted that it's a trade-off I'll have to deal with. Who cries, who curses my name or who even bothers to remember any memory they have of me after I'm dead is something I don't care for, all I've left is just a note regarding instructions on how to proceed after my passing. The feeling of guilt doesn't weigh anything compared my reasons for ctb.

 

[BorderlineChellery]

I'm feeling the same way. I'm sick of being told I have to be strong for others. They don't seem to care how much pain living is causing me

 

[chronicdissosiation]

suicide is self serving and accepting the fact that youll hurt people in the process is a huge step (something im trying to come to terms with) it probably doesnt mean anything for you, but im proud and I hope you can rest easy soon

 

[F@#$]

I do care how my death effects others. I plan on traumatizing the fuck out of all of them.

 

[Kit1]

To be honest, I would rather die. However I brought both my children into this world and my life essentially belongs to them and not to me. As a mum, I don't think I have the right to end my life as that will have a life changing, soul destroying effect on my children. Sometimes, foe some people, suicide cannot be an option (even though it might be the right option for that person as an individual)..,

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

Even if it is bad, which it probably isn't, why would you then care about that if you already didn't care in the first place?

 

[Henryk]

I honestly believe that this is one less barrier that you will have to go through to CTB.
I was supposed to be dead now but every time I try I end up imagining what my parents will look like after I die. They are people as emotionally shaken as I am and I can't bear the idea of leaving them in deep suffering. Maybe the day I no longer have them with me it will be easier to CTB. But at the moment, I'm just waiting for a moment of great emotional crisis to have the courage to leave.