Is it a given that everyone who ctb feels terrified just before?

[Ambivalent1]

I try and tell myself that this is all just a dream. None of it matters. Even if I had what I wanted from life, I'd just lose it all someday anyway. And that what a normal life consists of doesn't interest me and is really boring.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I can't imagine not feeling afraid at the end. SI is bound to kick in I would have thought. We're designed to fear and try and avoid things we know are going to hurt us.

I know what you mean though. I'm hoping cold hard logic will win out when the time comes. As in- you don't want to go on living like this so- get this small action done with and (hopefully) bring about a long coming conclusion to this shit.

 

[jjxt94]

It's pretty hard to overcome the fear when you are fully conscious. Some days, you get low enough to push boundary bit by bit

 

[UKscotty]

No, I believe once we are ready the fear will be gone and it will be peaceful and relaxing. The brain has given up hope of recovery and is ready to let go.

The fear comes from wondering if we are making a mistake and we might still be able to get better.

 

[Ambivalent1]

I can't imagine not feeling afraid at the end. SI is bound to kick in I would have thought. We're designed to fear and try and avoid things we know are going to hurt us.

I know what you mean though. I'm hoping cold hard logic will win out when the time comes. As in- you don't want to go on living like this so- get this small action done with and (hopefully) bring about a long coming conclusion to this shit.

I think I should solve my sleep deprivation problem so I can use cold hard logic. I'm an emotional wreck and have been for awhile

No, I believe once we are ready the fear will be gone and it will be peaceful and relaxing. The brain has given up hope of recovery and is ready to let go.

The fear comes from wondering if we are making a mistake and we might still be able to get better.

Then I'd feel fear because id be pushed to ctb by circumstances.

 

[MisterOGBongWater]

of course. its not supposed to be this way. im sure when its my time ill be sitting there terrified, wishing it could be different my life, but this is the reality, and the sooner that i accept that, the sooner i can escape this

 

[Ambivalent1]

of course. its not supposed to be this way. im sure when its my time ill be sitting there terrified, wishing it could be different my life, but this is the reality, and the sooner that i accept that, the sooner i can escape this

And the comforting thought that these brain created feelings won't matter when the brain is no more.

 

[MisterOGBongWater]

And the comforting thought that these brain created feelings won't matter when the brain is no more.

itll all be gone. waking up cold and alone, regrets in my life, the people ive burdened, the mistakes ive made, the absolute crippling emptiness i feel everyday shes gone. i just want to go to sleep.

 

[Ambivalent1]

itll all be gone. waking up cold and alone, regrets in my life, the people ive burdened, the mistakes ive made, the absolute crippling emptiness i feel everyday shes gone. i just want to go to sleep.

I'm sorry yeah the dream vanishes and is replaced by a "land" of no memory. So I guess Death is in a sense a kind of healing. I like to view death as a brilliant white as opposed to an imposing darkness.

 

[MisterOGBongWater]

I'm sorry yeah the dream vanishes and is replaced by a "land" of no memory. So I guess Death is in a sense a kind of healing. I like to view death as a brilliant white as opposed to an imposing darkness.

I havent heard that before, ive always thought of it as imposing darkness. a brilliant white sounds much more healing. healing indeed, nothing else will save me from this life ive created for myself. i hope your right, i hope death is kinder to me than i ever was to myself.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

ive seen many goodbye threads here. Pm with a lot here. Imo Many of them were not afraid. Saw a lot of suicides on watch people die .com they didnt look afraid to me. Theres even guy did a dance before jumping. Did ronnie mcnut look afraid?

I am not afraid of Death. Death is non-existence forever

Why is non-existence the best thing? No chance of extreme suffering, horrible problems , excruciating pain, terrible memories, all problems solved, no work, no chores, no worries, no stres, no injustice, no oppression, no unfairness, no lies, no diseases, no old age, no unmet desires, no cringe, no boredom..... i cant see why soneone wouldn't want that or be afraid of that

I am not afraid of Death. To "me" non-existence forever is the most beautiful thing by a trillion times

 

[Ambivalent1]

I havent heard that before, ive always thought of it as imposing darkness. a brilliant white sounds much more healing. healing indeed, nothing else will save me from this life ive created for myself. i hope your right, i hope death is kinder to me than i ever was to myself.

I hope it's kinder to me than other people have been

 

[MisterOGBongWater]

I hope it's kinder to me than other people have been

i hope so too.

 

[Ambivalent1]

ive seen many goodbye threads here. Pm with a lot here. Imo Many of them were not afraid. Saw a lot of suicides on watch people die .com they didnt look afraid to me. Theres even guy did a dance before jumping. Did ronnie mcnut look afraid?

Lucky them but I probably won't have the same experience