Is CTB my only option?

[tmcglone25]

I have a mental illness so severe that I have ran away from home three times, been in a psych ward 8 times and attempted to CTB five times. I have developed an intractable headache, meaning that it doesn't respond to medication. I'm not sure what's causing the headache, and that's the worst part. But it's so bad that I am literally curled into a ball for most of the day. It's never going to go away. I feel like my only hope is to get on some opiates but doctors don't want to prescribe them because of the risks. I don't make enough money on disability to support myself. I'm only 24 and my life is over. Is there any reason to be hopeful? Will my headache ever go away? I can't help but be angry at people who tell me to rest, take Advil, and drink water because they assume I haven't already tried that.
What am I supposed to do? My life is just waiting to die. Should I just do it myself?

 

[Isadeth]

I've had a constant headache ever since I broke my neck in 2008 from a horse riding accident. I'm in pain management. I'm not sure what all you've tried so far, but I have felt like a test subject to many specialists and clinical trials. Pain managment seems to be the only way to get a script and even then it's iffy and you have to jump through hoops. I'm so sorry you're enduring intractable headaches too. Besides trauma it's my main reason for wanting to ctb.

 

[AnxietyAttack44]

I dont know how to help you. I feel the same and its so frustrating. People only tell me to drink vitamins and pray and talk to god, and i do. I wish god would talk back tho..

 

[tmcglone25]

I went to a pain management doctor and he took an MRI of my neck. I have military neck and arthritis. He suggested Botox but my insurance company denied it. They said you're supposed to have a migraine for longer than four hours to get approved for Botox. I've had a migraine for two years. Much longer than four hours. But they still deemed it not medically necessary. They're scumbags.

 

[Isadeth]

I went to a pain management doctor and he took an MRI of my neck. I have military neck and arthritis. He suggested Botox but my insurance company denied it. They said you're supposed to have a migraine for longer than four hours to get approved for Botox. I've had a migraine for two years. Much longer than four hours. But they still deemed it not medically necessary. They're scumbags.

Honestly, botox was a waste of time. I tried it for months and seen no improvement. I have "military neck" too along with osteoporosis from years of steroids they threw at me. I'm on my 4th pain management clinic now. Try a different one if they're not helping you. Trigger point injections can help but they don't last long. If most clinics hear you're interested in injections too they'll usually write a script. Check reviews online before getting a referral.