Is anyone else here because of Chronic Pain?

[Brainpain]

Hey guys, like the title says I am wondering if anyone else is ctbing because of chronic pain like from an accident Or fibromyalgia, etc. Something with guaranteed no cure and meds don't really work. I have mental issues (severe insomnia and mild BP2) but it wasn't until the chronic pain that I checked out. Now my mental and physical issues feed off each other and when one goes the other follows then makes the other worse and it's a vicious cycle. At the height of my chronic pain, before I got into a treatment that sometimes makes it manageable, I ordered N. Having that gave me a lot of peace knowing I was here because I wanted to be. Now that my brain is spiralling again my chronic pain is as well and I'm realizing this is my life forever. I was wondering how many other people here have chronic pain because I heard the stats on chronic pain and suicide is very high. Yet all all our doctors mostly do is send us to stupid programs where we are taught how to "live with the pain".

 

[lululoo]

I have chronic pain (fibromyalgia plus other issues). Others here do too. Search for "chronic pain" and you will find us.
Sorry your treatment isn't helping any more. I never found anything that helped me.

 

[Hush Sweet Charlotte]

Yes, me too. I lived with all sorts of extreme awfulness and never remotely looked into ways to cbt until I got the untreatable and progressive nerve pain. Sorry you are both suffering too.

 

[Timeless]

Yes, me too. I lived with all sorts of extreme awfulness and never remotely looked into ways to cbt until I got the untreatable and progressive nerve pain. Sorry you are both suffering too.

I'm also here cause of %^#$ nerve pain 24/7 even fentanyl 400ug wont help to get rid enough of it completely. Can only walk short distances or I have to take loads of painkillers.
It sucks and this has been for 3 years now

 

[Ruffian]

Yes, I have many weird issues with chronic pain that went undiagnosed for a long time. Mostly my mid-back and neck. I feel for you, I have severe insomnia to the point where I will go one night on 2 hours sleep, the next night could be 4, and the next might be 5 if I'm luck. I don't know the last time I got a decent night's sleep. It is the loneliest and one of the most despairing experiences in life IMO. I'm up, I'm down, I'm on my back, I'm on my side, I need to pee, I can't get comfortable, I hear a noise, it goes on and on. There are forums similar to this for people like me with their insomnia. Basically we're saying, STFU with your sleep hygiene propaganda. It's infuriating to be told that organizing a rigid schedule before bed will help you fall asleep. I have Bipolar 1.

I'm also here cause of %^#$ nerve pain 24/7 even fentanyl 400ug wont help to get rid enough of it completely. Can only walk short distances or I have to take loads of painkillers.
It sucks and this has been for 3 years now

I'm afraid this is the next thing for me. My hands tingle, but several times this past winter my feet hurt so bad when they got cold I would cry. I had to put those toe warmers in my shoes.

 

[inconsequential]

Yep. A majorly fucked spine (I won't bore you with the details; I need at least 2 more surgeries and "time"), a connective tissue disorder, bowels that don't work great, lungs that don't work great, epilepsy. It's a mess in this electrified meat sack.

 

[Thorn]

One of the reasons. Brain trauma.

 

[crimea_river]

I have M.E, have had for over 10 years and a myriad of associated crap and it's all slowly, but surely worsening.

I live in a state of fluctuating confusion, as M.E is a neurological condition, fluctuating malaise, mental and physical pain.

I'm pretty much left to rot by the healthcare 'system' where I live and wouldn't be much different elsewhere anyway. I could go on, but wouldn't have the energy to type more and it wouldn't get me or any of the sufferers anywhere anyway.

 

[Kyrok]

Scoliosis, plus a number of other related issues. Pain is constant and I'm in bed from late afternoon onwards. Can't sit through a meal, struggle to use my left arm, can't do much typing, etc..

3x 7.5mg oxycodone, 300mg Tramadol, & medical marijuana.

Some days are manageable, while during others I feel like I can't take another day of such pain.

Recently had to give up writing (most of what I do for a living) because of it.


Let's start a daily venting thread for people here struggling with medical issues!

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

I have a few heath issues. Not as serious as some on here … maybe most.
Mental issues … but I try to hide those to not send up any red flags so I can hopefully CTB.

 

[Jen0804]

I have fibromyalgia too as well as other painful conditions . Opiates are a patch up, in about an hour I'll be in too much pain to move or think straight and it's been like this for ten years
It's definitely enough to drive someone to want to ctb.

 

[Morphinekiss]

Yea. Epilepsy, chronic migraines, and trigeminal neuralgia leave the top half on fire. Degenerative discs and severe sciatica leave me barely mobile. Sometimes I can't even stand long enough to brush my teeth. Oh and endometriosis means I feel like I'm giving birth to an alien daily.

 

[Pilum Muralis]

I have neuropathy in my feet. It's like walking on needles, even with my meds. My main problem is my back. Due to an accident I have 3 unrepairable herniated discs and several fractured vertebrae, with one of the broken vertebrae crushing a nerve that runs down my left leg, so that messes with walking, and especially sleep. I've had 2 surgeries to try and repair the fractures, to no avail, and I now have a implanted spinal stimulator to help ease pain, but it helps very little, if at all. As for pain medications, good luck. Pain management docs are so scared to prescribe it. I gave in and got this stupid implant that has been more hassle and a waste of money. If I were single, I would have ctb long ago. Seems just existing is more trouble than its worth. God I always sound like I'm whining when I talk about my problems.

 

[Jumper]

I have a permanent painful foot injury, sustained just over a year ago. It hurts with every step. Standing is intolerable and feels like my foot is carrying 300 lbs. I also have another physical ailment. My job involves a lot of standing/walking, and the pain is so distracting. Who knows how long I can keep it up. I've experienced suicidal ideation for most of my life, and carry a diagnosis of bipolar II.... so I definitely understand the mental and physical issues feeding off of each other. I wanted to CTB prior to this injury, and now I am desperate for it.

 

[Jen0804]

I have neuropathy in my feet. It's like walking on needles, even with my meds. My main problem is my back. Due to an accident I have 3 unrepairable herniated discs and several fractured vertebrae, with one of the broken vertebrae crushing a nerve that runs down my left leg, so that messes with walking, and especially sleep. I've had 2 surgeries to try and repair the fractures, to no avail, and I now have a implanted spinal stimulator to help ease pain, but it helps very little, if at all. As for pain medications, good luck. Pain management docs are so scared to prescribe it. I gave in and got this stupid implant that has been more hassle and a waste of money. If I were single, I would have ctb long ago. Seems just existing is more trouble than its worth. God I always sound like I'm whining when I talk about my problems.

You don't sound so like you are whining! Your problems count too ((hugs))
SOrry to hear all you have to put up with :/

I have a permanent painful foot injury, sustained just over a year ago. It hurts with every step. Standing is intolerable and feels like my foot is carrying 300 lbs. I also have another physical ailment. My job involves a lot of standing/walking, and the pain is so distracting. Who knows how long I can keep it up. I've experienced suicidal ideation for most of my life, and carry a diagnosis of bipolar II.... so I definitely understand the mental and physical issues feeding off of each other. I wanted to CTB prior to this injury, and now I am desperate for it.

((Jumper)) I'm so sorry, that sounds horrible

 

[thedutchguy]

Yeah I'm here because of chronic pain. Fibromyalgia 3 worn-out vertebra (lower back) cluster headache 21 hours a day double sided (not any treatment gets it under control )

 

[Ricks]

My first post but I definitely can relate to this thread. I have pudendal nerve entrapment that has left me pretty much bed ridden for nearly eight years. Multiple surgeries have made my condition and pain worse. Painkillers don't really work that well for nerve pain so I don't really take anything. The only thing that helped was benzos but my new Dr is currently tapering me off (benzo withdrawal is pure hell). Occasionally I can drive a short distance but I pay severely afterwards. It's really not much of a life. My heart goes out to anyone here going through chronic pain, I hope we all can find peace.

 

[BrokePlatypus]

I'm planning on CTBing due to chronic pain and debilitating body functions. It ruined my life and now I can't really do much besides be a burden that needs help with everything.

 

[mathieu]

I have a bad back. At a time, it was a reason to CTB. The pain was severe and unrelenting but now it's quite a lot better and doesn't hurt all the time. It's my mental health that makes me want to CTB.

 

[usernameNotFound]

I think its cruel that doctors have methods of assisted suicide - and some are willing to do it. but that the government prohibits it because of what they consider to be "moral".

I have chronic dry eye, which is no where near as bad as some of the chronic conditions out there. However, I still have trouble getting through most days and my mental health has been crushed due to the constant discomfort.

On days when my eyes are good, all the emotional pain I've kept at bay because I've been dealing with physical pain comes flooding back

Its so hard to deal with but I have so little self-confidence that I can't even kill myself.

 

[Hush Sweet Charlotte]

I have chronic dry eye, which is no where near as bad as some of the chronic conditions out there. However, I still have trouble getting through most days and my mental health has been crushed due to the constant discomfort.

On days when my eyes are good, all the emotional pain I've kept at bay because I've been dealing with physical pain comes flooding back

Its so hard to deal with but I have so little self-confidence that I can't even kill myself.

I'm so sorry you have this. I have no tear production and on bad days it makes me feel a desperate anxiety that nothing else ever has done. I'm not at all sure I'll be able to ctb either, given I need to be in a state of extreme distress and suffering to go ahead with it, but this makes the inert gas method hard to use and it is the only option for me. I hope you find a method that you feel confident about using should it come to it.

 

[Rocksandsand]

I have chronic daily headaches - which are nothing compared to what some poor souls are enduring on this forum - but fuck they wear a person down. Every day, without fail, a headache from the moment I wake up to when I fall asleep. Codeine is the only thing that shifts them. But god forbid I ask for a prescription, lest I get labelled a drug seeker

Also, a question for anyone with fibromyalgia or chronic fatigue... what was the process for getting diagnosed? And what do they do for treatment? I suspect I may have these. My body hurts all the time and I struggle with exhaustion. I know it's not my thyroid or anything evident in a standard blood test...

 

[Brainpain]

I have chronic daily headaches - which are nothing compared to what some poor souls are enduring on this forum - but fuck they wear a person down. Every day, without fail, a headache from the moment I wake up to when I fall asleep. Codeine is the only thing that shifts them. But god forbid I ask for a prescription, lest I get labelled a drug seeker

Also, a question for anyone with fibromyalgia or chronic fatigue... what was the process for getting diagnosed? And what do they do for treatment? I suspect I may have these. My body hurts all the time and I struggle with exhaustion. I know it's not my thyroid or anything evident in a standard blood test...

Not fibro but another condition very similar.. had fibro ruled out after a lot of testing. Basically for fibro they rule out everything and then they base it on a checklist of symptoms associated with the syndrome including pain in all four quadrants of the body (I didn't fit that criteria). It used to be diagnosed based on a certain number of tender points in the body but that testing standard recently changed. Make sure you see a doctor who actually "believes" in FM and CFS as there are a few dinosaurs that still use it as a catch all for "whiny women complaining about normal aches and pains/tiredness" or suspect it's psychological . The latest research is that these conditions are neurological disorders known as "central sensitization syndromes" and very real and debilitating. The Mayo Clinic has some excellent videos explaining how many of these start and are managed. Management is usually limited to medications that many people have little to no success with, manual therapy on muscles/tender points, getting proper sleep, stretching and gentle exercise and cognitive behavioural therapy to try and change the way your brain perceives pain. To be honest I have met many FM patients in my chronic pain support groups and none have had a lot of success in treatment.

 

[omoidarui]

I have a permanent stomachache that has been diagnosed as functional in nature i.e. neuropathic. I've been prescribed Amitriptyline for it, which helps. That isn't my reason for suicidality though.

I was told by my doctor he thought my thoughts of self-harm were the thing making me unwell, but I'm not sure... does anyone else here get stomachache (and think it might be related to depression/anxiety)?

 

[Fragile]

I have a permanent stomachache that has been diagnosed as functional in nature i.e. neuropathic. I've been prescribed Amitriptyline for it, which helps. That isn't my reason for suicidality though.

I was told by my doctor he thought my thoughts of self-harm were the thing making me unwell, but I'm not sure... does anyone else here get stomachache (and think it might be related to depression/anxiety)?

definitely, depression and anxiety can trigger a ton of gastrointestinal issues but they are usually not the main reason why you have them, most of the times is genetic.

managing my anxyety has helped a lot, but there is no cure for most of this shit.

 

[Bulletwbttrflywings]

Hey guys, like the title says I am wondering if anyone else is ctbing because of chronic pain like from an accident Or fibromyalgia, etc. Something with guaranteed no cure and meds don't really work. I have mental issues (severe insomnia and mild BP2) but it wasn't until the chronic pain that I checked out. Now my mental and physical issues feed off each other and when one goes the other follows then makes the other worse and it's a vicious cycle. At the height of my chronic pain, before I got into a treatment that sometimes makes it manageable, I ordered N. Having that gave me a lot of peace knowing I was here because I wanted to be. Now that my brain is spiralling again my chronic pain is as well and I'm realizing this is my life forever. I was wondering how many other people here have chronic pain because I heard the stats on chronic pain and suicide is very high. Yet all all our doctors mostly do is send us to stupid programs where we are taught how to "live with the pain".

I'm not here from physical pain, but more so mental and spiritual pain. I know chronic pain is a horrible feeling.... my heart hurts for you all who experience this horrendous thing... hugs

 

[HGL91]

I think its cruel that doctors have methods of assisted suicide - and some are willing to do it. but that the government prohibits it because of what they consider to be "moral".

I have chronic dry eye, which is no where near as bad as some of the chronic conditions out there. However, I still have trouble getting through most days and my mental health has been crushed due to the constant discomfort.

On days when my eyes are good, all the emotional pain I've kept at bay because I've been dealing with physical pain comes flooding back

Its so hard to deal with but I have so little self-confidence that I can't even kill myself.

Oh man. I can empathize. Since moving to a new state, I've had dry eyes every day and no matter how many eye drops I use, it doesn't help! It hurts so badly!

I have chronic daily headaches - which are nothing compared to what some poor souls are enduring on this forum - but fuck they wear a person down. Every day, without fail, a headache from the moment I wake up to when I fall asleep. Codeine is the only thing that shifts them. But god forbid I ask for a prescription, lest I get labelled a drug seeker

Also, a question for anyone with fibromyalgia or chronic fatigue... what was the process for getting diagnosed? And what do they do for treatment? I suspect I may have these. My body hurts all the time and I struggle with exhaustion. I know it's not my thyroid or anything evident in a standard blood test

Headaches are so distracting. The older I get, the more I get, and it makes it so hard to function.

 

[omoidarui]

definitely, depression and anxiety can trigger a ton of gastrointestinal issues but they are usually not the main reason why you have them, most of the times is genetic.

managing my anxyety has helped a lot, but there is no cure for most of this shit.

I have discomfort even when I'm in good spirits, which is actually most of the time, to be fair

I've considered fasting and did so for one weekend but had to stop due to the unbearable headaches. I'm convinced fasting of some kind is the cure though, but I need advice about it (of course the doctors would have me believe drugs are the answer and that they don't condone alternatives. Even in spite of the evidence base in favour of the benefits of fasting when you're unwell)

 

[Bruceleelives1969]

Pain from Neuropathy. It is in my hands and terrible

 

[Punished]

The pain in my back, nerve pain, compressed discs, muscle spasms, today was so bad I locked myself in my office and curled up on the floor to cry. Last night I couldn't sleep, it hurts to stand, to sit, to lean, to breathe. I won't be able to keep working full time much longer, and with that goes my insurance, my livelihood. I rocked back and worth on the floor, trying to stay quiet so no one in the nearby offices would hear, and prayed to just die.
I feel pathetic. I feel so weak. And the steroids and muscle relaxers and pain killers just make me nauseated, and sleepy, they don't really take the pain away.