dust-in-the-wind

dust-in-the-wind

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Im suffering so badly. My brain is trying to kill me. I can't function. I want so badly to get all my affairs in order first but can't even do that. Can anyone else relate to how disabling MDD is?
 

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I'm afraid to leave my apartment due to medical abuse ptsd and chronic physical pain. I'm looking into the Switzerland option.
 
divinemistress36

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I wont leave my bed for weeks due to MDD. I have to have my mom do everything
 
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i need to sell quite a few things, put others in some order, which will take some time but i lose the will to follow through. i don't want to leave a mess of things for relatives to have to go through and also want to leave any funds i can.
 
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Bedridden... No...
Housebound... Yes...

In pretty bad f***ing shape, if I'm being honest.

@genoke - this is major depressive disorder
 
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Yeah I pieced that together right after I sent it but I'm too f'd up today
 
genoke

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Bedridden... No...
Housebound... Yes...

In pretty bad f***ing shape, if I'm being honest.

@genoke - this is major depressive disorder
I am housebound not bedridden struggling very hard to eat every day but today I can't. I've had mdd since I was tiny child.
 
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Hollowman

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Yeah I can relate, it sucks not being fully alive. Sorry you have to deal with this bs.
 
divinemistress36

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It really zaps all your energy
 
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Major Depressive disorder
I can relate so much to your post. Right now I just have.... I'm losing hair in the shower and I think about to have a nervous breakdown and I won't be able to eat today.

If I cry ill never stop. I can't move today I'm too isolated even online this reddit ban Killed Me. I banned myself.....
 
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Angst Filled Fuck Up

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Yeah, this is my diagnosis, and I'm incredibly fatigued and brain fogged. Every part of my body feels heavy and compromised. My limbs throb, and I can barely ever drag myself out of bed to do anything. And if I overexert, I pay the price by being even more exhausted than usual over the next few days.
 
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Yeah, this is my diagnosis, and I'm incredibly fatigued and brain fogged. Every part of my body feels heavy and compromised. My limbs throb, and I can barely ever drag myself out of bed to do anything. And if I overexert, I pay the price by being even more exhausted than usual over the next few days.
Shit I'm getting there too where my old errands are just breaking my body down completely it's so scary. I'm losing control of my what choices I have. I have no choice but to keep it together or I'll get locked up.
 
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dust-in-the-wind

dust-in-the-wind

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I am housebound not bedridden struggling very hard to eat every day but today I can't. I've had mdd since I was tiny child.
I struggle to eat as well. I am so sorry you suffer from this, especially from such a young age:(
 
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It really zaps all your energy
It does, doesn't it?? I can usually manage to keep the pets taken care of but man oh man. Or doing anything more than taking a shower -- and then sleeping the rest of the day because it literally took ALL my strength to get that done.
 
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It does, doesn't it?? I can usually manage to keep the pets taken care of but man oh man. Or doing anything more than taking a shower -- and the sleeping the rest of the day because it literally took ALL my strength to get that done.
Taking a shower is a huge effort! My 65 year old mother has way more energy than me
 
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I struggle to eat as well. I am so sorry you suffer from this, especially from such a young age:(
What are the fastest easiest meals for you to eat? I am definitely not eating enough. What do you do if you're too tired to go #2?

My brain is so foggy right now it's unbelievable.......
 
dust-in-the-wind

dust-in-the-wind

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I wont leave my bed for weeks due to MDD. I have to have my mom do everything
I have a BF that's been doing everything for me but seriously how much longer will be be able to tolerate this and then I'm screwed. I'm glad you have your mom for support.
What are the fastest easiest meals for you to eat? I am definitely not eating enough. What do you do if you're too tired to go #2?
I drink meal replacement shakes and eat yougurt and instant oatmeal
 
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I bed rotted for months. The time blurs together and you suddenly haven't gotten out of bed in god knows how long. I have more energy now, but I've always been really bad at maintaining a consistent caloric intake so now I'm tired from whatever deficiencies I have
 
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dust-in-the-wind

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i need to sell quite a few things, put others in some order, which will take some time but i lose the will to follow through. i don't want to leave a mess of things for relatives to have to go through and also want to leave any funds i can.
Same. If I go now I will leave a mess and they will be cursing my grave
I bed rotted for months. The time blurs together and you suddenly haven't gotten out of bed in god knows how long. I have more energy now, but I've always been really bad at maintaining a consistent caloric intake so now I'm tired from whatever deficiencies I have
I don't eat much either. I'm glad you have more energy. I've been bed rotting for months not for lack of energy but more that i lost the will to live and do anything.
I can relate so much to your post. Right now I just have.... I'm losing hair in the shower and I think about to have a nervous breakdown and I won't be able to eat today.

If I cry ill never stop. I can't move today I'm too isolated even online this reddit ban Killed Me. I banned myself.....
Same. I cry every day and barely eat. I also got banned from reddit for a post about suicide I wrote.
I'm afraid to leave my apartment due to medical abuse ptsd and chronic physical pain. I'm looking into the Switzerland option.
I hope that works out for you if you have no other options to get better.
Yeah I can relate, it sucks not being fully alive. Sorry you have to deal with this bs.
I'm dead inside with no will to live.
Taking a shower is a huge effort! My 65 year old mother has way more energy than me
I feel my depression isn't a lack of energy but more that I lost the will to live and give a shit about doing anything.
 
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Im suffering so badly. My brain is trying to kill me. I can't function. I want so badly to get all my affairs in order first but can't even do that. Can anyone else relate to how disabling MDD is?
I have been diagnosed with MDD when I was 11. Almost 8 years later and I have found ways to deal with bedridden…ness.
I was bedridden for a bit, but I became obese since I was sedentary. Obesity and wasting days made me more miserable, which made me to get up off my behind and lose the weight. I still make sure that I get up, clean myself, and work out at least once a month. I live each day like it is my last since it might be.

I wish you the best, but being in bed all day does you no good, even if you can not bring yourself to get up. My tip: Roll out of bed. Literally. The rest will follow.
 
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