Is anyone else adopted?

[OICU812]

I'm just curious if anyone else here is adopted. I am and I turned out to be the black sheep of the family.
I had a great upbringing with a great family, yet I still turned out this way.
I always had moderate depression and suicidal thoughts since my early teens.
I am 0 for 2 on CTB (two failed attempts).

 

[situationalsui]

I'm adopted with piles of trauma on top. My upbringing was good as well but life just didn't work out. Wishing you the best.

 

[SSamGarrison]

Yes, although it has no bearing on my suicidal thoughts. Actually my family is pretty decent and well off, so I got lucky there

 

[deepblack]

"Technically" I wasn't adopted, but grew up as a foster child in a foster family (I'm not sure if this is a regular concept in every country). Besides formalities on paper it's pretty much the same as being adopted.
It was ok from a "materialistic" standpoint, and probably better than growing up in a children's home. Still I didn't like it at all. I was only between one and two years old when I came there, but never connected to them. People with very different thoughts and mindsets than I have. Also pretty much the exact opposite of my natural parents, very different lifestyle and so on.
It definitely had bad impact on me, in particular on emotional/mental/psychological areas. I'm diagnosed with SzPD, for instance.

 

[situationalsui]

"Technically" I wasn't adopted, but grew up as a foster child in a foster family (I'm not sure if this is a regular concept in every country). Besides formalities on paper it's pretty much the same as being adopted.
It was ok from a "materialistic" standpoint, and probably better than growing up in a children's home. Still I didn't like it at all. I was only between one and two years old when I came there, but never connected to them. People with very different thoughts and mindsets than I have. Also pretty much the exact opposite of my natural parents, very different lifestyle and so on.
It definitely had bad impact on me, in particular on emotional/mental/psychological areas. I'm diagnosed with SzPD, for instance.

I hear you on ended up with folks who are the opposite of my bio parents. It made things hard growing up. The connection wasn't there.

 

[su1c1dal-dungeon]

i used to wish i was adopted when i was younger. i would tell myself "if i was adopted i would know i was loved because they picked me and wanted me 100%" i think its because i wasnt a planned pregnancy i was just a surprise,, to this day idk if it was a happy surprise or a terrible one.
really random comment but when i saw your post it reminded me of that. i forgot i used to feel that way.

 

[deepblack]

How did you grow up then, in a children's home?

i used to wish i was adopted when i was younger. i would tell myself "if i was adopted i would know i was loved because they picked me and wanted me 100%" ...

Ideally that's the way it should be, but it's not what I experienced. And obviously it has been similar for @situationalsui
In my case I guess it's safe to say the foster father hated me. I hated him for sure. The entire thing was initiated by my foster mother. I can say she cared about me, but it was far far away from a feeling of "love".

i wasnt a planned pregnancy i was just a surprise,, to this day idk if it was a happy surprise or a terrible one.

So you don't know your bio parents?
I wasn't planned at all, too. My natural parents were drug addicts at the time, and I just "happened" lol.

 

[DeadHead]

I was, best thing that ever happened to me. I had wonderful parents who died young. I met the woman who gave birth to me, she was a loser and a whore who eventually killed herself.