Invincible?

[AnnonyBox]

Anyone else feel really empowered and overjoyed after a test run of their cbt method? The thought "nothing can hurt me now" crossed my mind after my last successful test run.

 

[Mich517]

I had that after failure with Sodium Nitrite a bit. It's evanescent. :-P At least for me it was.

 

[suffering]

I envy you so much! I don't know the feeling, my SI is too strong. After my approach (I can't even call it attempt) I felt like I traveled through hell and discovered that I'm trapped.

 

[Psilo]

I had that after failure with Sodium Nitrite a bit. It's evanescent. :-P At least for me it was.

How did you fail sn?

 

[Mich517]

How did you fail sn?

Didn't take anti-emetics before -> Lot of vomiting.

 

[Kikoo Loool]

Didn't take anti-emetics before -> Lot of vomiting.

Thank you for feedback. It must have been quite painful.

 

[SweetGoldenLake]

I feel invincible after somehow not managing to figure out partial after trying for months, fingers crossed tonight?

 

[ImSorryEmma]

I feel invincible after somehow not managing to figure out partial after trying for months, fingers crossed tonight?

So... You CTB now tonight? well if you are then good luck and all hope for the best and also if heaven/hell is real then tell god/satan i said hi, anyways i need to get sleep for the night so goodbye for now

 

[Kikoo Loool]

I feel invincible after somehow not managing to figure out partial after trying for months, fingers crossed tonight?

Do you mean you're ready and firmly decided to catch the bus tonight?

 

[SweetGoldenLake]

Do you mean you're ready and firmly decided to catch the bus tonight?

I've been ready, just cant get partial to work for me even though I've been attempting most nights. I have shotguns I could use as a last resort if I cant figure it out, but I'd rather not do that to my parents who'll find me

 

[Jen Erik]

Anyone else feel really empowered and overjoyed after a test run of their cbt method? The thought "nothing can hurt me now" crossed my mind after my last successful test run.

Not invincible so much, but definitely empowered, relieved, a sense of comfort.

 

[TAW122]

I've had some test runs by dry firing (pulling the trigger without any ammo) my shotgun with the barrel in my mouth a few times in the past. I've somehow learned roughly about how much pressure (in lbs) that I need to exert with my finger in order for the gun to go off. When I hear a click, then it means that had there been a live round in the chamber, the gun would have gone off.

As of now, since I'm not actively suicidal, I don't really think of offing myself. I'm just passively suicidal, daydreaming of suicide from time to time.