Discussion Introduction!

[SuicidalCurryBoy]

Hey everyone.

I'm new here.

My has been nohing but pain and misery from my childhood to my teen years. I have been bullied by men. And rejected by women. While the phsyical pain is now gone, the mental pain is only increasing. I have trouble sleeping, and I have a lot of nightmares. I have been to therapy. But the relief it gave me was temporary...

I still have nightmares and PTSD attacks.

I see dreams of my father beating my mother.
I breakdown at the sight of locked doors.

At 21 I started to loose hair.

I will probably look like a medieval freir in a few years.

Day by day, I can see my body failing.

Despite my daily workouts, I feel weaker and weaker every day, like the life draining from me.

My only relief is that my writing will uplift me so that I can make enough money to fix all my genetic defects.

All I feel is pain. It feels like pain is the only thing I ever felt.

Despite having a degree, I can't seem to be able to find work. The only work I've been offered pays minimum wage and expects professional results. I've had several jobs and I always found myself sitting at a desk and thinking "Is this it?"

I've tried multiple treatments for my skin, all with no luck...

I have come here to die.

 

[Wisdom3_1-9]

I'm so sorry you feel this way. I am grateful, though, that you can find solace in writing. I hope it brings you comfort along with income.

As for employment, now is a very difficult time for a lot of people. I have a doctorate and can't get a job in my field. I'm working in something completely unrelated and unfulfilling. Stay strong. The right fit may come along.

 

[psychoticxerror]

Welcome! I'm sorry that you've been let down by so many people. I have a bachelor's degree, and the jobs I've had were all pretty awful as well. I think many places are like that nowadays, which is why the gig industry has been growing. I hope that writing will bring you the peace that you deserve.