Venting Internal Thoughts (Just ranting)

[Minus]

Hello all, I've returned after what feels like quite some time apart from this site. Was never one to post much but reading peoples stories always seemed to help, you know? It let me remember that others have had similar things in their mind as mine.

Which speaking of - my minds felt a tad less stable lately. I've switched medications to something that seemed at first to be helping more but, not anymore. The crashing waves of suicide rock at my minds shore just the same and all I can do it try to weather it myself.

Reached out for therapy in my town. Never again. I was told to wash my hands to focus on the bubbles and just - I have never been so insulted at the idea that someone who is legally able to try and help people in sentitive areas, who have gone on record to say "I am suicidal, can you help me somehow" have the audacity to say "Wash your hands".

Like for fucks sake why are you in this field you quack.

All in all this almost reads like some sort of diary but I just felt I needed to put this into words and get it out of me. Plenty more feels fucked up in my soul but tossing something out like this first helps. Probably something to do with gallows humor or something iunno.

Regardless thank you to those who've read the ramblings of a madman like myself and I hope you find the peace you clearly deserve. All deserve peace, having found their way to this forum.

 

[Overwhelmed52]

"The crashing waves of suicide" I so get this. I've been on a real roller coaster lately, partly because of circumstances and partly because of meds. My health care provider is supposed to also give me therapy but just gives me a prescription and doesn't seem at all interested in what I'm feeling. It's so tough sometimes. You wrote a really great post and I hope things get better for you and all of us who need it.