Story Interesting suicide note that i've found.

[wineblues]

Once i've been reading suicide notes from random people and found that one. It was originaly written in russian but i'll translate it for you.

Dear aunt! I'm in forest now. I feel cheerfuly. I'm picking flowers and waiting for a train impatiently. It would be craziness to ask help from God in what i planned but i'm going to enforce my whish.

Russian teacher. End of XIX century.

I was surprised by that fact that somebody can experience joy and fun before CTB. I wish i could feel that way before i go. The main reason i wanna end my life is anxiety disorder. 90% of time i feel anxiety and fear. So i hope that when time will come, i will be brave. What do you think about fear? Do you feel it? How can you manage it?

 

[watereyes]

Yeah well, I think that if you experience fear, then it's not time. I can relate to the feeling of happiness before killing yourself, I felt the same when I tried to hang myself; you made up your mind and you're finally going forward, no regrets.. :)
But if you fail, oh God. The frustration is horrible to deal with. Then you try again and again and you just hurt yourself.

 

[wineblues]

Yeah well, I think that if you experience fear, then it's not time. I can relate to the feeling of happiness before killing yourself, I felt the same when I tried to hang myself; you made up your mind and you're finally going forward, no regrets.. :)
But if you fail, oh God. The frustration is horrible to deal with. Then you try again and again and you just hurt yourself.

I fear less with time. Year ago i was trembling with fear when i was thinking about death. For now i feal a little anxiety, not severe fear. I whant to know, how can i fail if it would be full suspention? It could be not so peaceful ok, but with guarantee.

Love you avatar. What is this?

 

[watereyes]

I fear less with time. Year ago i was trembling with fear when i was thinking about death. For now i feal a little anxiety, not severe fear. I whant to know, how can i fail if it would be full suspention? It could be not so peaceful ok, but with guarantee.

Love you avatar. What is this?

Hi, I failed both full and partial. Full snapped instantly, I was lucky. Partial loosened itself and I was left with ear pain.

My avatar is the first Max Headroom Signal Hijacking, 1987. It was a guy who pirated a tv station to broadcast some nonsense. Afaik, he has never been caught :)

 

[wineblues]

Hi, I failed both full and partial. Full snapped instantly, I was lucky. Partial loosened itself and I was left with ear pain.

My avatar is the first Max Headroom Signal Hijacking, 1987. It was a guy who pirated a tv station to broadcast some nonsense. Afaik, he has never been caught :)

I got tough rope and a forest near me. I will design all of that to be done once and for forever. At least i got engineer degree.))))

 

[DJ2000]

Once i've been reading suicide notes from random people and found that one. It was originaly written in russian but i'll translate it for you.

Russian teacher. End of XIX century.

I was surprised by that fact that somebody can experience joy and fun before CTB. I wish i could feel that way before i go. The main reason i wanna end my life is anxiety disorder. 90% of time i feel anxiety and fear. So i hope that when time will come, i will be brave. What do you think about fear? Do you feel it? How can you manage it?

You need to overpower your fear with drugs. Get on heroin, heroin junkies aren't afraid of anything.

 

[wineblues]

You need to overpower your fear with drugs. Get on heroin, heroin junkies aren't afraid of anything.

That's actually is my idea. Get heroin is a quest but i got experience with Hydra (internet black market) so i can get it, i think.

 

[watereyes]

That's actually is my idea. Get heroin is a quest but i got experience with Hydra (internet black market) so i can get it, i think.

i think you're not allowed to mention other sites here.

 

[Boredsapiens]

The last time I was happy was when I found out that I could kill myself by hanging. So for some people suicide is the only source of happiness.

 

[watereyes]

The last time I was happy was when I found out that I could kill myself by hanging. So for some people suicide is the only source of happiness.

Same. And when I found out I couldnt do it, oh the frustration

 

[a.n.kirillov]

Don't get on heroin smh

 

[wineblues]

Don't get on heroin smh

I mean not to go in addiction? I'll use it twice. First time for test and another one for CTB.

 

[a.n.kirillov]

I mean not to go in addiction? I'll use it twice. First time for test and another one for CTB.

Okay. Well it's a very addicting method so ... just be careful