I've thought in the past about entering a deeply meditative state, possibly with sensory deprivation to try to enduce some form of disassociation / ego distancing. Of course, there are a thousand reasons why this is probably a bad idea which I'll get into a bit later.
I feel like one of my main problems is the inability to decouple myself from my suffering. I'm too associated with my percieved reality, too self aware, too awake in my own hell.
With the introduction out of the way... I keep thinking, perhaps there's some structured way to achieve this successfully without losing a part of your sanity, but I haven't really been able to find out much from the research I've done.
To be able to detatch from one's psychological pain would be so relieving in theory, though the issue as I understand it is losing all sense of self entirely to the point where you stop caring about bodily signals. That isn't necessarily a garuntee with everyone, although depressed individuals are more prone to negative side effects associated with ego death apparently.
I've also heard it can be difficult to reverse once a person enters the deeper stage of disassociation / derealization. I'm not too terribly well versed on the subject, or psychology in general, so that's why I'm making this post. Everyone's neurochemistry is different so there's really no telling how exactly how a specific individual will react.
It may be like playing Russian roulette with your psyche. The prospect of losing sense of "myself" does scare me a bit but when it comes down to it, what exactly do I have to lose? (That said, desperation isn't exactly a great decision-maker either.) Maybe I'll be one of the lucky ones.
I know this approach is quite possibly a foolish idea depending on how it's gone about so I'd love your inputs. Perhaps there's another solution I'm not seeing, one that is less drastic and less risky but drugs (prescription or otherwise) have always been a pretty garbage cope to me. I have yet to have found a single solid one. Thanks.
I feel like one of my main problems is the inability to decouple myself from my suffering. I'm too associated with my percieved reality, too self aware, too awake in my own hell.
With the introduction out of the way... I keep thinking, perhaps there's some structured way to achieve this successfully without losing a part of your sanity, but I haven't really been able to find out much from the research I've done.
To be able to detatch from one's psychological pain would be so relieving in theory, though the issue as I understand it is losing all sense of self entirely to the point where you stop caring about bodily signals. That isn't necessarily a garuntee with everyone, although depressed individuals are more prone to negative side effects associated with ego death apparently.
I've also heard it can be difficult to reverse once a person enters the deeper stage of disassociation / derealization. I'm not too terribly well versed on the subject, or psychology in general, so that's why I'm making this post. Everyone's neurochemistry is different so there's really no telling how exactly how a specific individual will react.
It may be like playing Russian roulette with your psyche. The prospect of losing sense of "myself" does scare me a bit but when it comes down to it, what exactly do I have to lose? (That said, desperation isn't exactly a great decision-maker either.) Maybe I'll be one of the lucky ones.
I know this approach is quite possibly a foolish idea depending on how it's gone about so I'd love your inputs. Perhaps there's another solution I'm not seeing, one that is less drastic and less risky but drugs (prescription or otherwise) have always been a pretty garbage cope to me. I have yet to have found a single solid one. Thanks.
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