KiraComplex
sugar, spice…
- Aug 31, 2019
- 268
this is my greatest fear. its ruining my life.
i first played The Walking Dead game at my grandmas house with my brothers, and it just came out. i was super young, probably 6 or 7. maybe older. i liked that your choices mattered and the story was interesting and i thought lee was cool.
i was having fun. until the point where you find your zombified brother under a telephone pole, i thought "what if that was my brothers? or my mom? or my dad?" and dread set in. ive been traumatized ever since.
i didnt play the game until it was free on xbox 360 years later, which i played through all the chapters. dread and sadness was the only thing i felt, but i was so hooked.
probably a week after i stopped playing, my brother and i also watched the show that had just come out. it was horrifying. masses of bloodied bodies. the dead stacked on top of each other.
its not the zombie creature that scares me, its the fact that the world is dead. your distant relatives, the nice lady down the street, someone you saw in a commercial for fast food. all dead. it fucks me up so bad.
everyday im reminded how feeble, fragile the world is. every where i look, everyone i talk to, the world can break in two in seconds. i cant enjoy myself anymore. i cant even hang out with my mom, who i love the most, without the dread of annihilation, and the collapse of society. everything gone, and everyone i knew taken with it.
i currently dont own a gun, but the moment i get my license im going to have one specifically to kill myself if the apocalypse ever happened. load up on drugs and just kill myself.
chaos.
i first played The Walking Dead game at my grandmas house with my brothers, and it just came out. i was super young, probably 6 or 7. maybe older. i liked that your choices mattered and the story was interesting and i thought lee was cool.
i was having fun. until the point where you find your zombified brother under a telephone pole, i thought "what if that was my brothers? or my mom? or my dad?" and dread set in. ive been traumatized ever since.
i didnt play the game until it was free on xbox 360 years later, which i played through all the chapters. dread and sadness was the only thing i felt, but i was so hooked.
probably a week after i stopped playing, my brother and i also watched the show that had just come out. it was horrifying. masses of bloodied bodies. the dead stacked on top of each other.
its not the zombie creature that scares me, its the fact that the world is dead. your distant relatives, the nice lady down the street, someone you saw in a commercial for fast food. all dead. it fucks me up so bad.
everyday im reminded how feeble, fragile the world is. every where i look, everyone i talk to, the world can break in two in seconds. i cant enjoy myself anymore. i cant even hang out with my mom, who i love the most, without the dread of annihilation, and the collapse of society. everything gone, and everyone i knew taken with it.
i currently dont own a gun, but the moment i get my license im going to have one specifically to kill myself if the apocalypse ever happened. load up on drugs and just kill myself.
chaos.
