Retched
I see the chaos in your eyes.
- Oct 8, 2018
- 837
Well here it goes again. The few hours of sleep I get. Last time it pushed me over into psychosis and I broke down and got impulsive and ruined my life by a broken down bus that I was rescued from.
I haven't been able to sleep more than a few hours a night. Wonder if it will push me over the edge again. I'm not standing too far from the edge and I wish there was a literal edge but there are no good places here for a cliff or a bridge and the parking garages risk too much chance of survival.
I'm so tired. Tired of living. Tired of how hard it is to ctb. Tired of my living situation. Tired of not being able to sleep. This is slow torture. How am I going to make it through work in a few hours. I have no idea.
I haven't been able to sleep more than a few hours a night. Wonder if it will push me over the edge again. I'm not standing too far from the edge and I wish there was a literal edge but there are no good places here for a cliff or a bridge and the parking garages risk too much chance of survival.
I'm so tired. Tired of living. Tired of how hard it is to ctb. Tired of my living situation. Tired of not being able to sleep. This is slow torture. How am I going to make it through work in a few hours. I have no idea.