Insane how close death is if you want it

[GravityUtilizer]

I've got SN under my bed. I've learned the important knots for hanging. And I can take a bus/train to Beachy Head any damn time I want :)

 

[gnomeboy17]

Very relatable. I bought SN in February and keep it by my bed. It actually made life a lot easier and surprisingly made me less suicidal. It's nice to know that I could just end it whenever I want whereas before, I was really depressed but felt so trapped.

 

[WornOutLife]

It feels great to control the way you're gonna die. Good for you and btw, interesting reflection on how close death can be.

 

[Silver]

Which would be your preferred option @GravityUtilizer? (I'm guessing jumping was when you signed up here)

 

[schopenh]

Is it really closer if the will remains unchanged?

 

[GravityUtilizer]

Which would be your preferred option @GravityUtilizer? (I'm guessing jumping was when you signed up here)

Yeah Beachy Head was my first option but I still haven't even visited. It's such a goddamn hassle doing anything in depression. But yeah SN or hanging should be easy enough; the only reason I still think about BH is because I could get drunk beforehand and make a day of it.

 

[Xocoyotziin]

Very relatable. I bought SN in February and keep it by my bed. It actually made life a lot easier and surprisingly made me less suicidal. It's nice to know that I could just end it whenever I want whereas before, I was really depressed but felt so trapped.

My rope makes me feel the same way. I used to keep it with me whenever I went out lol, even though spontaneously hanging yourself probably isn't going to be feasible most of the time. I felt better just having it.

 

[Meditation guide]

It actually made life a lot easier and surprisingly made me less suicidal. It's nice to know that I could just end it whenever I want whereas before, I was really depressed but felt so trapped.

I completely agree with you. Part of the horror, a large part, is feeling trapped without a way out if you can't stand it any more. Knowing you have some control and choice makes all the difference.

 

[Lupgevif]

If it was really about wanting I'd be super close now. For me it is more like the more you seek it, the closer you get.

 

[Ghost2211]

I like having the SN so close. It brings comfort, but days like today it's just a forbidden snack. It's something I want and have, but can't use.

 

[GravityUtilizer]

I like having the SN so close. It brings comfort, but days like today it's just a forbidden snack. It's something I want and have, but can't use.

Yup. I feel ya.

 

[Blurred_Reality]

I've got SN under my bed. I've learned the important knots for hanging. And I can take a bus/train to Beachy Head any damn time I want :)

Where was your SN from?