Input most appreciated

[Autumn_Stars]

Sorry we're all here. I absolutely cannot take the crushing loneliness and three debilitating and progressive illnesses any more. I will not wake up Christmas morning alone. I will have OpenAI narrate a story to me and slip away as calmly as as I can.

I do not want to hang myself or put a bag over my head but can't get hard methods like a gun. I have 100 MG Gabapentin 170 Ct. I have 50 MG Trazidone 80 Ct. I can afford to buy anything suggested. I live in a three bedroom house I own alone. Nobody ever comes. Thank you.

 

[U. A.]

I stumbled across your older posts some months ago, seeing you mentioning you've been in this since the ASH days. I don't have anything to offer other that the clichéd sympathies for someone suffering so long and with what you have experienced.
Wishing peace of whatever kind finds you soon

 

[endlesstranquility]

I live in a three bedroom house I own alone

You are light years ahead of me,

 

[Autumn_Stars]

You are light years ahead of me,

Actually I was talking about Katie Spade's suicide with AI. "Her suicide note was a form of postmodern minimalism." Also (unprompted of course) "consider the aesthetics of her ligature." Drift was designer--->suicide. Even Musk gets gripped up by the black dog. I took the civil servant exam, came out first, and had a good decade. As much the social alignment as the salary. I guess when something really horrible happens you're more predisposed than the serotonin privileged.

 

[OzymandiAsh]

Sorry we're all here. I absolutely cannot take the crushing loneliness and three debilitating and progressive illnesses any more. I will not wake up Christmas morning alone. I will have OpenAI narrate a story to me and slip away as calmly as as I can.

I do not want to hang myself or put a bag over my head but can't get hard methods like a gun. I have 100 MG Gabapentin 170 Ct. I have 50 MG Trazidone 80 Ct. I can afford to buy anything suggested. I live in a three bedroom house I own alone. Nobody ever comes. Thank you.

What kind of input are you after? It's unclear if your plan is to hang yourself (with the help of some meds) or to OD.

I stumbled across your older posts some months ago, seeing you mentioning you've been in this since the ASH days. I don't have anything to offer other that the clichéd sympathies for someone suffering so long and with what you have experienced.
Wishing peace of whatever kind finds you soon

What were the ASH days???

 

[DeathSweetDeath]

I'm sorry. Idk what to tell you, but I wouldn't do anything with the traz. I've taken it occasionally for sleep. Once I accidentally took 2 or 3 times what I should've, and I will never forget how sick I was for about the next 8 hours, so I can't imagine how horrible an intentional overdose of much more would feel. I hope you can find a better solution .