I've had several hospitalizations, I can't recall the exact number. somewhere around 5 or 6. I'm not sure how to compile them into a story, it's all a blur of humiliation, dehumanization, desperation, pills, fear, anger, sleeplessness, bullshit art projects and team building exercises... most of my stays haven't been all too helpful. Many nurses talked down to me, treated me like a child. One of my stays I was shitting black due to the charcoal which I don't remember being given. One doctor remembered me from a stay 5 years prior. One stay made my dad cry, which I've only witnessed twice in my life. I dunno. Too many random pieces to try and fit together, my memories during those times are shite.
I do know that my last stay, few years back, was the biggest fucking joke on the planet. Just put me in a room, nobody paid any attention to me so I just read my Charles Bukowski book that I never remembered to return to the library (or tried, over the constant screams of the poor fucking chick next door). Nurses were obviously annoyed by my very presence anyway, so whatever... Finally, after 3 days, a doctor came into my room. Sat down with his clipboard, which he didn't look up from. Asked me a few basic questions, barely scraping the surface and just checking boxes on the list. 5 minutes and he was done, got up and left without any further words. I guess from that brief interaction, he had determined which meds I would be taking. The whole experience was so unbelievably ridiculous that the shock actually brought me back to reality enough to be like "fuck this shit I'm out." I was there voluntarily so I told them I was done. I resumed my shitty drunken life, and later tried to kill myself. But I never returned to one of those shitholes, and never intend to.
I can see that it can be helpful for someone who needs to be stabilized, which it has helped with in the past when I've been off my fucking rocker and balls deep in mania and/or psychotic. But that's about it I guess