In serious need of help

[I’vehadenough]

my anxiety is getting worse. I can't function anymore, I just pace the floors or lay in bed screaming inside. I can only shower at night because it's when the anxiety is less. This is all due to suddenly becoming facial disfigured. Has anyone else experienced such anxiety? How do you deal with it without taking medicine or shit?

 

[worldexploder]

i experienced a 2 year long nervous breakdown from 2004 to 2006. I had up to 10 panic attacks. It was horrible. The only thing that stopped them was medication. But then I was near catatonic state due to my brain being so exhausted. Took along time to reboot.

 

[okyeah]

Sounds horrible why don't u take the medicine? I was prescribed propranolol and it is pretty harmless

 

[worldexploder]

Sounds horrible why don't u take the medicine? I was prescribed propranolol and it is pretty harmless

I take propranolol too. In fact, that's what I attempted to CTB on back in 2015. Didn't work.

Propranolol and Xanax are the perfect combos for me. Doesn't do a god damn thing for my depression and I'm still anxious all the time. At least I'm not paralyzed by panic anymore.

 

[I’vehadenough]

my anxiety is getting worse. I can't function anymore, I just pace the floors or lay in bed screaming inside. I can only shower at night because it's when the anxiety is less. This is all due to suddenly becoming facial disfigured. Has anyone else experienced such anxiety? How do you deal with it without taking medicine or shit?

How do you feel when you're gojng catatonic?

 

[I’vehadenough]

Sounds horrible why don't u take the medicine? I was prescribed propranolol and it is pretty harmless

No, pills are harmful. They are what disfigured me by causing my eyes to shrink and my face to sag. All pills do this to me. I look so bad now that I barely look human

 

[okyeah]

No, pills are harmful. They are what disfigured me by causing my eyes to shrink and my face to sag. All pills do this to me. I look so bad now that I barely look human

Propranolol won't do this to you but it's your life.

 

[I’vehadenough]

Propranolol won't do this to you but it's your life.

Yes, it will. All toxins do. I guess there's no solution then? That's why suicide is the only way out

 

[okyeah]

I take propranolol too. In fact, that's what I attempted to CTB on back in 2015. Didn't work.

Propranolol and Xanax are the perfect combos for me. Doesn't do a god damn thing for my depression and I'm still anxious all the time. At least I'm not paralyzed by panic anymore.

propranolol and xanax sounds like a lot!

Interesting to hear propranolol didn't affect your anxiousness. I guess I can see why - it seems to only help my physical symptoms of panic but as far as my mental anxiety, it's still there. But getting rid of physical anxiety is still really good.

 

[okyeah]

Yes, it will. All toxins do. I guess there's no solution then? That's why suicide is the only way out

It's a beta blocker. All it does is stop your beta adrenergic receptors from getting a lot of input. This leads to less fight or flight response. That's it. It's not a toxin. Just trying to help you see the science. I can see why you think it might do something else unintended or something, but it is extremely harmless as far as medicine goes.

 

[worldexploder]

How do you feel when you're gojng catatonic?

I never went full catatonic I don't think. Just a catatonic like state. Everything felt like a dream even though I knew it was real. I walked around sort of like a ghost, I wouldn't talk to nobody hardly and would spend my days just sitting on the couch or laying in bed. I even lost my appetite. Also I felt like I was a totally different person as if had an entirely new identity. I didn't recognize myself anymore.

 

[worldexploder]

propranolol and xanax sounds like a lot!

Interesting to hear propranolol didn't affect your anxiousness. I guess I can see why - it seems to only help my physical symptoms of panic but as far as my mental anxiety, it's still there. But getting rid of physical anxiety is still really good.

I been taking them for awhile. Maybe some of the effects wore off. One thing it does is slow my heart rate down and allows me to leave the house (even though I still don't like to). It does effect the level of anxiousness. The highest level is basically a panic attack.

 

[worldexploder]

No, pills are harmful. They are what disfigured me by causing my eyes to shrink and my face to sag. All pills do this to me. I look so bad now that I barely look human

What is the medical term for the condition you are describing?

 

[I’vehadenough]

It's a beta blocker. All it does is stop your beta adrenergic receptors from getting a lot of input. This leads to less fight or flight response. That's it. It's not a toxin. Just trying to help you see the science. I can see why you think it might do something else unintended or something, but it is extremely harmless as far as medicine goes.

But it's a drug, and all drugs do this to me, so I can't take it

 

[I’vehadenough]

I never went full catatonic I don't think. Just a catatonic like state. Everything felt like a dream even though I knew it was real. I walked around sort of like a ghost, I wouldn't talk to nobody hardly and would spend my days just sitting on the couch or laying in bed. I even lost my appetite. Also I felt like I was a totally different person as if had an entirely new identity. I didn't recognize myself anymore.

Wow, I feel like that's next for ms

 

[I’vehadenough]

What is the medical term for the condition you are describing?

There is none. I've seen this reaction on the faces of a few people in the mental hospital. It's horrid, barely look human. And I can't find anything about it on google. Some people are so sensitive to medicine that it destroys their faces. According to a plastic surgeon, I lost facial volume, which caused my face to sag and bloat up

 

[worldexploder]

There is none. I've seen this reaction on the faces of a few people in the mental hospital. It's horrid, barely look human. And I can't find anything about it on google. Some people are so sensitive to medicine that it destroys their faces. According to a plastic surgeon, I lost facial volume, which caused my face to sag and bloat up

That's horrible. I did hear of steroids making people's faces bloat. Has a doctor determined that your facial conditions was caused by medication?

 

[I’vehadenough]

That's horrible. I did hear of steroids making people's faces bloat. Has a doctor determined that your facial conditions was caused by medication?

I already know it is, it happened instantly. They just told me, see a plastic surgeon. Plastic surgery can't fix this. Assholes. Only way to find peace now is suicide. I just need the guts to do it