fleetingnight
incapable of shutting up
- May 2, 2024
- 637
I fucked up my taxes and I owe more than I have in my bank account
I still don't have a job, so I'll have to ask my parents for help
Idk when I'll be able to pay them back
Idk if I have the heart to ask. They know I'm a fuck up, but I don't want them to know I'm this hopeless
I feel fucking awful
It's all my fault
I'm the one who filed them wrong, and the one who wasted money on weed
I really, really don't know what the fuck to do anymore
I have less than a month to pay it
I keep applying to jobs, but it doesn't matter what I do, I can't get one
I really, really, really don't know what the fuck to do, I'm freaking out
I hate this
How can one person fuck this much up in less than 3 decades?
I don't wanna jump somewhere busy, where a lot of people pass by and could easily see, but I might have to. I found my ideal jumping spot a few days ago, but it only worked if I got a bit more money and had a bit more time. As things are now, it's impossible. I can't even die how I want to, I have to traumatize a bunch of random passerbys who didn't do anything wrong
I don't know why I owe so much.I made a mistake, but I tried as hard as I could
I guess I'll look for tall buildings now, though idk how to get roof access. If I don't have a job in a month, I have no choice but to try
I'm just sitting in my room, sobbing and hyperventialting, trying to do it quietly enough my family doesn't hear
I didn't want to die like this
Edit: I'll pull myself together and send some job applications now, but it's so pointless. I know I'm not getting one. I never do.
I still don't have a job, so I'll have to ask my parents for help
Idk when I'll be able to pay them back
Idk if I have the heart to ask. They know I'm a fuck up, but I don't want them to know I'm this hopeless
I feel fucking awful
It's all my fault
I'm the one who filed them wrong, and the one who wasted money on weed
I really, really don't know what the fuck to do anymore
I have less than a month to pay it
I keep applying to jobs, but it doesn't matter what I do, I can't get one
I really, really, really don't know what the fuck to do, I'm freaking out
I hate this
How can one person fuck this much up in less than 3 decades?
I don't wanna jump somewhere busy, where a lot of people pass by and could easily see, but I might have to. I found my ideal jumping spot a few days ago, but it only worked if I got a bit more money and had a bit more time. As things are now, it's impossible. I can't even die how I want to, I have to traumatize a bunch of random passerbys who didn't do anything wrong
I don't know why I owe so much.I made a mistake, but I tried as hard as I could
I guess I'll look for tall buildings now, though idk how to get roof access. If I don't have a job in a month, I have no choice but to try
I'm just sitting in my room, sobbing and hyperventialting, trying to do it quietly enough my family doesn't hear
I didn't want to die like this
Edit: I'll pull myself together and send some job applications now, but it's so pointless. I know I'm not getting one. I never do.
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