EyeBeyond

EyeBeyond

Beyond Galaxy
Dec 3, 2023
68
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Rumi

Rumi

Experienced
Mar 29, 2023
227
Personally I would say a 9 or 10.

I wasn't abused, parents stayed together, I had some friends if not many, and was well taken care of.

Honestly, the fact that I have had an easy life makes me want to CTB even more. It's like, I have no reason to be the fuck up that I am. I can't blame it on any experience I have had.

I'm not sure how many SS members can relate, or if most people have suffered as kids in some way.
 
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Tokugawa_Yoshinobu

Tokugawa_Yoshinobu

Arcanist
Sep 10, 2023
424
It was a 6. It was good in many ways but I suffered some abuse too. I wish it would have been better.
 
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hikikomorizombie

hikikomorizombie

Ouch
Jan 15, 2024
771
solid 3?? def below average. constant bs w little-no relief, just like now. way too much to type.

didn't even realize it was really that bad till i posted a vent abt my mom on here, lol. wasn't expecting the reactions i got.
 
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EvisceratedJester

EvisceratedJester

|| What Else Could I Be But a Jester ||
Oct 21, 2023
2,831
Around an 8

It pretty standard but good overall.
 
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LastLoveLetter

LastLoveLetter

Persephone
Mar 28, 2021
657
0 would be too high in all honesty. I was born disabled and frail on the verge of death. Then I was abused severely physically, sexually and psychologically. Passed around like a sex toy, forced to enact humiliating and painful things I'd rather not disclose. Neglected and hungry. Forced to witness animal torture and death. Saw people die under awful circumstances and take drugs. Watched my mum stab my dad and then proceed to chase me around the house wielding a knife. Smothered and almost killed by my own mother. That's just to name a few.

When I was adopted, I hoped this meant I was saved but instead, I ended up in another abusive environment. It wasn't quite as "severe" in certain ways, but it was still horrible, traumatic and inescapable.

Genuinely horrid childhood.
 
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リンさん

リンさん

Rina • she/her, lesbian
Sep 9, 2023
323
Maybe a 4 or so. Grew up in a poor country, my family living above our means, abusive alcoholic father and a helpless mother. Adopted horrible coping mechanisms which I am still struggling with to this day.

Got zero help for my mental health because "it's just your teenage years & excessive screen time" which backfired, obviously. A severe case of overbearing and controlling parenting, never got to integrate into the society and had to learn things the hard way when I became an adult.
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
10,900
I would say 9-10. I had a good childhood.
 
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LifeIsCrazyNemb

Arcanist
Jan 21, 2024
400
Personally I would say a 9 or 10.

I wasn't abused, parents stayed together, I had some friends if not many, and was well taken care of.

Honestly, the fact that I have had an easy life makes me want to CTB even more. It's like, I have no reason to be the fuck up that I am. I can't blame it on any experience I have had.

I'm not sure how many SS members can relate, or if most people have suffered as kids in some way.
I also had a great childhood just like yours. Id say 9,5 or 10.
The problem is getting older lol
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
8,833
Depends who you're comparing me to...

Maybe a 4-5.

3 dead family members by age 10- my Mum, Grandpa and Nana. Then, I grew up with a (suspected) narcissist. Suicidal from age 10 upwards.

The good bits though- I had a very loving Grandma and Dad. My Nana was really wonderful before she died. But to date- ages 10-18 were the absolute worst for me.

Doesn't really compare to people who were very severely abused but, it wasn't a good start.
 
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stuckinthemud

Student
Nov 14, 2023
120
Up till 8 probably 10 ! I was a very content child.

Then SA happened at 8 with a family member :( and I was an early developer which really impacted me.

After that 6 I'd say. Teenage years were brutal some definite lows
 
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leavingthesoultrap

leavingthesoultrap

(ᴗ_ ᴗ。)
Nov 25, 2023
1,212
Assuming 0 is the worst... 4 to 5
It is hard to rate with just a number.
My mother was extremely cold towards me and sometimes emotionally abusive. My dad wouldnt pay much attention to me. I hated school. But I liked my grandad and had few friends.
 
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Unknown21

Unknown21

?/?/2024
Apr 25, 2023
947
1
 
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Raindancer

Raindancer

Specialist
Nov 4, 2023
316
That's a tough one. I lived part time with my grandparents so with my parents I'd say 3, but with my grandparents I'd say 7 or 8. The only reason it's not a 9 or 10, is that I knew I should be with my parents and just usually didn't feel completely settled. That I knew my home situation wasn't normal and it really messed me up.
 
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Ksmиda

Ksmиda

Have I died too soon or lived too long?
Oct 23, 2023
187
5
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
37,110
I don't rate it anything as in my case I wish I never existed, I see it as something so incredibly cruel to so harmfully impose existence, I will always hate how the peace of non-existence was so tragically disturbed by being burdened with the ability to exist. Procreation is such a horrific tragedy to me as it's the source of all suffering, I don't see any value in having the ability to exist as a conscious being in this world filled with endless cruelty and harm. It's tragic how people procreate especially as there was never a need for existence, existence just is creates problems that were completely unnecessary in the first place, no matter what only the state of non-existene could ever be desirable.
 
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disabledlife

disabledlife

Specialist
Jun 5, 2020
389
0! Bad birth, harmful life, disabled! Abuse, violence, harassment, rotten hometown, poverty, shitty country (which absolutely defends procreation but absolutely does not protect children, leaves too many rights to parents)...

In fact, I would have preferred not to rate down my childhood, because I would have preferred never to be born.
No education, never in good health, childhood which destroyed my adult life, my professional future, my studies, despite my intellectual abilities, the rejections by others, the fact that I had been lectured for anything and everything without reasons ...

And also the fact of being born with Asperger's autism, that beautiful bastard! This explains my character.

I have told my story on several threads in this forum. Truly horrible, and again I have witnessed people who have been through much worse than me, descend into madness. I tried to save, to help these people in my town, I can only see my failure and the paltry means I had at hand.
 
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onbekend

onbekend

Experienced
Jan 14, 2024
266
7/10
 
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Unattainable666

Unattainable666

Enlightened
Mar 31, 2023
1,346
-100
 
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disabledlife

disabledlife

Specialist
Jun 5, 2020
389
This is proof of birth inequalities, which explains some of my threads, elsewhere in this forum, which I do not prefer to detail here. So much the better for people who had a good childhood. If only everyone had the guarantee of a good childhood, good parents... it's just a dream.
 
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lament.

lament.

the Immortal
Jun 28, 2023
163
6. I was in a lot less pain back then, however I was still suicidal.
 
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UKscotty

Doesn't read PMs
May 20, 2021
2,450
10.. great childhood, had some great times.
 
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Cyndaquil

Cyndaquil

Need Peace
Dec 2, 2023
61
6-7. It wasn't the best childhood but compared to what was to come it was decent.
 
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roku6

roku6

Student
Jan 23, 2024
107
4, terrible parents and family circumstances, but had some joy in school.
 
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annointed_towers

annointed_towers

Cursed by God
Dec 9, 2022
314
4. Grew up with a lot of stress from finances and my fathers anger and abuse
 
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