Impulsive.

[watereyes]

update : Just tried pulling my extension cord see how it goes. It stretches. Sounds risky. I think I was being impulsive. I'll shut up.

The wait for SN is too long and I can't wait now. I want to die. I will try partial+plastic bag again tonight or tomorrow, and we'll see how it goes.

If I'm dead I won't be back tomorrow, and if I survive I will delete this post.
It was humiliating to study in what are supposed to be my last weeks, but I'd become suspicious if I didn't.

Something to remember, if anything, I'm 18 and love(d) creating art.

Anyway I suck with words.

Here is a song by Charles Aznavour, it's nice.



And Russian Music.



Afterlife scares me. Who knows where I'm going? I feel like an evil person. I will make them suffer :(

 

[InTheAirTonight]

Why can't you wait for SN?

 

[watereyes]

Why can't you wait for SN?

It's been a month. It's just too painful to keep going. I gave up on it, it's not arriving.

 

[miguel6565]

Good luck in your trip buddy,love and peace for you

 

[plough22]

You're 18, things change very fast. Get through the pain if you can, if not, hope you find peace

 

[InTheAirTonight]

It's been a month. It's just too painful to keep going. I gave up on it, it's not arriving.

Don't do this, you may have regrets. Just sleep on it and come back.

 

[puppy9]

Yeah man please sleep on it.

LOL,he just said he was waiting for SN let him go in peace

SN is peaceful. We don't even know what method he's going for? What if he botches the whole thing?

 

[watereyes]

Yeah man please sleep on it.

Don't do this, you may have regrets. Just sleep on it and come back.

I don't understand.

 

[theguineapigking]

Hey watereyes. I'm very sorry that it's come to this.

Are you about to make an impulse attempt? Did you just decide tonight that you couldn't wait for your sn? Impulse isn't a great idea. Are you sure you want to die? Were you planning to use your sn as soon as you got it? Or were you going to keep it set aside in case things got too bad?

All I can say is please don't rush. There's nothing wrong with backing out. There's always another day.

Best wishes.

 

[puppy9]

I don't understand.

Please wait for the SN and do it properly and peacefully. What method you're going for now? Having SN set stash away is liberating. Make a new order or something.

 

[watereyes]

Hey watereyes. I'm very sorry that it's come to this.

Are you about to make an impulse attempt? Did you just decide tonight that you couldn't wait for your sn? Impulse isn't a great idea. Are you sure you want to die? Were you planning to use your sn as soon as you got it? Or were you going to keep it set aside in case things got too bad?

All I can say is please don't rush. There's nothing wrong with backing out. There's always another day.

Best wishes.

I was planning to use SN as soon as I got it. I wrote this thread a week ago but wasn't sure if I should post it.

 

[theguineapigking]

I was planning to use SN as soon as I got it. I wrote this thread a week ago but wasn't sure if I should post it.

I definitely understand how you feel, not being able to wait. I thought I couldn't wait to receive my sn. But somehow I'm still here lol.

You're sure that nothing can get better for you? Is there any doubt in your mind? I'm not pro life or anything. I'm simply trying to make sure that you're not rushing.

If you do attempt, I sincerely hope you find peace and happiness. Or if you don't attempt, we're here to talk with you.

 

[Lost_the_will2_live]

Hey you.

I know it's frustrating but remember the post is in delay at the moment due to the covid-19 issue. Things will arrive, there is just abit of a delay.

It is a tough time anyway at the moment which won't help how you are feeling. But please re think your decision, at least until ur SN arrives.

We are all here for you and your not alone here at all. I wish I had known all I know now at 34 when I was 18! One thing I didn't do back then was take people's advice when they were trying to help me and that's all we are doing now.

Go rest, have a nap, listen to your favourite upbeat songs or go for a walk to a favourite place of yours but please don't make a decision hastily and await the arrival of ur SN.

Here for you always.

 

[watereyes]

okay, okay. that was probably impulsive. it really, really hurts that I don't have this fucking SN. Just seeing how weak my setup is calmed me. I really can't go with that.

 

[Lost_the_will2_live]

okay, okay. that was probably impulsive. it really, really hurts that I don't have this fucking SN. Just seeing how weak my setup is calmed me. I really can't go with that.

Good choice, seriously just wait on the SN. I've had mine a month now and it just feels good to have it in my possession. I thought I'd ctb right away but I'm taking my time and sorting things out first and making sure I'm ready to go with no impulsive thinking.

have a relaxing day and don't be hard on yourself, taking the decision to wait is brave AF. Major respect to you ‍