Stop and think for a minute.
What's the likely outcome?
Forget other people for a moment. Think about your body. What's going to happen when those pills go down your throat? Will you be able to swallow that many? I know I take 9 every evening and 3 in the morning and have to take the evening ones in 2s and 3s with a small gap in between otherwise I gag and want to vomit.
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what will happen when they reach your stomach and start to break down and mix? Will your stomach be happy or want to get rid of them? Are you just going to spend the next few hours or more hanging over the toilet spewing your guts up? Maybe you'll end up going to hospital?
4 of my daily tablets are because I fucked up with another medication and have myself horrendous stomach acid. Trust me, you don't want that.
Impulsive behaviour often ends up with unforeseen consequences.
So go and do something else. Clean the oven. Go for a run. Weed the garden and take no prisoners. Turn up the music and dance. Anything productive and active and mindless.
Then reassess.
I'm not saying don't self destruct. I'd be a right hypocrite. Just don't do it on a whim. Plan it. Be ready to accept what happens next. As it won't be pretty.