Venting I'm useless.. I want to die

[Isisnefert]

Después de trabajar durante 10 años en trabajos basura, me despidieron del trabajo, mi cuerpo se rompió, tengo dolor crónico y todavía no tengo un diagnóstico, mi novio me cuida y me apoya económicamente, me quedé en la cama por último año con la depresión, mi novio empieza a enfadarse por esta situación, me dijo. Estoy tratando de estudiar para un trabajo indoloro, pero la medicación mató mi cerebro.
Hace 12 años pensé en ctb, lamento no haberlo hecho entonces.
Tengo ataques de pánico durante todo el día.
Solo pienso en ctb como solución.
Me acaba de detener que la gente de mi pueblo para burlarse de mí y de mi familia para siempre.
No soy popular en SS, y tampoco hablo bien el inglés. Estoy usando Google Traslate. Lo siento

 

[whywere]

1st off you do not need to speak English to convey the fact that you are a VERY warm and caring person. I am 65 years young, YEP OLD!, and through my life I have been fired so, so many times I lost count along time ago. 90% of my job loses was because of "office politices" and nothing to do with my job performance. I was layed off last 06.24.2020 because of covid 19 and have not found anything yet. I like working, must be stupid!!! 2nd: You ARE a very valuable part of our global family here and I need you. 3rd: hate to say it but your boyfriend does not seem to be very thoughtful and /or compassionate. Please tell him this: it is eay to judge, hard to understand. 4th: I have NEVER been popular with anyone or anything and I am ok with it becasue I put myself out there all the time to help and love everyone. If people think whatever, THAT is THEIR problem not mine. In closing, YOU are a fantastic global family member and I for one, need you here as you bring warmth, insight and the experience that only you can share with the rest of us. Walter (yep Walter is my real first name nothing ever phoney about me ever)

 

[Lmd]

¿No hay nada que te alente un poquito a seguir adelante? Al menos cagarte en los muertos de la gente del pueblo no sé. Tener ataques + depresión es lo peor, siento mucho que estés en esa situación.

 

[Isisnefert]

1st off you do not need to speak English to convey the fact that you are a VERY warm and caring person. I am 65 years young, YEP OLD!, and through my life I have been fired so, so many times I lost count along time ago. 90% of my job loses was because of "office politices" and nothing to do with my job performance. I was layed off last 06.24.2020 because of covid 19 and have not found anything yet. I like working, must be stupid!!! 2nd: You ARE a very valuable part of our global family here and I need you. 3rd: hate to say it but your boyfriend does not seem to be very thoughtful and /or compassionate. Please tell him this: it is eay to judge, hard to understand. 4th: I have NEVER been popular with anyone or anything and I am ok with it becasue I put myself out there all the time to help and love everyone. If people think whatever, THAT is THEIR problem not mine. In closing, YOU are a fantastic global family member and I for one, need you here as you bring warmth, insight and the experience that only you can share with the rest of us. Walter (yep Walter is my real first name nothing ever phoney about me ever)

Thank you Walter, you always have nice words for All of us, i appreciate it, these are hard Times and I need it.

¿No hay nada que te alente un poquito a seguir adelante? Al menos cagarte en los muertos de la gente del pueblo no sé. Tener ataques + depresión es lo peor, siento mucho que estés en esa situación.

It would help me survive be useful, I Don't Live in the village, i left When i was 18, they were abusive to me, my parents live There and i Don't Want them to be ashamed of me by ctb

 

[sparkie]

Try not to care about what other people think of you they really aren't thinking about you their thinking about themselves Also a lot of times when people put you down its because they know you are better than them Get a goal try and complete it if you don't complete it never worry at least you TRIED that's the main thing TRY to do things at least then you won't look back with regrets Most of all don't be hard on yourself by your post I know your as good or most likely better than anyone you'll meet in this life

 

[fred farkle]

i dont speak spanish,sorry! uhm...calling wornout life...

 

[Isisnefert]

no hablo español, lo siento! uhm ... llamando vida gastada ...

Sorry, I wrote it in English but the browser traslated it

Trate de no preocuparse por lo que otras personas piensen de usted. Ellos realmente no están pensando en usted, están pensando en sí mismos. También muchas veces cuando la gente lo menosprecia es porque saben que usted es mejor que ellos. Consiga una meta. Intente completarla si No lo completas, nunca te preocupes, al menos INTENTASte que eso es lo principal INTENTA hacer las cosas al menos entonces no mirarás atrás con remordimientos. Sobre todo, no seas duro contigo mismo con tu publicación. Sé que eres bueno o probablemente mejor que nadie que conozcas en esta vida

What you've told me Is really encouraging, I think it's a good idea to try some goal before ctb

 

[Isisnefert]

i dont speak spanish,sorry! uhm...calling wornout life...

After working for 10 years in garbage jobs, I was fired from work, my body broke, I have chronic pain and I still do not have a diagnosis, my boyfriend takes care of me and supports me financially, I stayed in bed for the last year with depression , My boyfriend starts to get angry about this situation, he told me. I am trying to study for a painless job, but the medication killed my brain.
12 years ago I thought about ctb, I'm sorry I didn't do it then.
I have panic attacks throughout the day.
I only think of ctb as a solution.
I just stopped the people of my town to make fun of me and my family forever.
I'm not popular in SS, and I don't speak English well either. I am using Google Translate. I'm sorry