Venting im ugly as fuck

[meddle]

as if i dont have enough mental problems already... im fat pimply disgusting freak. dont know how people tolerate me, haha. why my boyfriend stays with me (i guess he is just desperate)

i weight 76 kg at body hight 159. i look disgusting. its all because of my fucking treatment. i wanted to die and was slim, but now im fat... and guess what? i still want to die! its all my fault. i should eat less and more healthy. but i suspect that on these drugs you can starve and still be fat

and what about my face? i tried, i visited dermatologist, took systemic retinoids. but time passed, treatment came to an end, and everything came back. now my face looks disgusting again

i just... i dont know. i dont really see a way out

 

[JustBe]

The suicide rate is linked to how unattractive you are. Nothing new there. Good luck with that.
If you've got the nerve to go through with it, you could save tens of thousands of dollars and get help from specialists to completely overhaul your face; some of the results are impressive, but to do that you'd have to save money for something that a large part of the population will never do and doesn't need. It's unfair. About fatness, there are rings you can put, fat you can remove, it doesn't always mean putting efforts into it.

Some people's life change dramatically after surgeries. The way out - if ugliness is your major problem - is actually to wageslave, live like a rat, for years, until you can afford whatever expensive surgery is needed. In 2026 you can do almost anything related to your looks if you have some money to spend. To feel more confident, to actually be better looking, to be fitter. Tons of solutions. But you need to act, to choose to make it your main goal and to work through it.

Effort and goals are actually quite a good cope, and it helps to delay suicide.

 

[Seneca65AD]

I am so sorry about what you're going through. It must be horrible to feel so ugly in your own skin. My following comment is only being made because your final line was you don't see a way out, but have you considered seeing a therapist about possible body dysmorphia? Your height and weight put you in the non-scientific "curvy" category. Pimples/acne etc. have remarkable treatments available but first you may want to see if it is a permanent issue or one brought on for other reasons. It does not sound permanent, i.e. scarring, because it was under control with treatment. Maybe, just maybe, your looks are objectively not as bad as you think. I know it doesn't make your situation any easier because body image is almost entirely subjective, but perhaps therapy might assist you in not getting so down on yourself.

Again, I do not mean to minimize your pain in anyway; I'm just trying to offer possible solutions to ease your suffering.

 

[meddle]

I am so sorry about what you're going through. It must be horrible to feel so ugly in your own skin. My following comment is only being made because your final line was you don't see a way out, but have you considered seeing a therapist about possible body dysmorphia? Your height and weight put you in the non-scientific "curvy" category. Pimples/acne etc. have remarkable treatments available but first you may want to see if it is a permanent issue or one brought on for other reasons. It does not sound permanent, i.e. scarring, because it was under control with treatment. Maybe, just maybe, your looks are objectively not as bad as you think. I know it doesn't make your situation any easier because body image is almost entirely subjective, but perhaps therapy might assist you in not getting so down on yourself.

Again, I do not mean to minimize your pain in anyway; I'm just trying to offer possible solutions to ease your suffering.

thanks for your long reply. i apreciate your time

yeah, my problems arent permanent by definition, but i still dont see how can i solve them. i cant loose much weight on my psychiatric drugs. and i already have been treated with systemic retinoids. i just dont see what other options do i have. i guess i could try to treat my body dysmorphia with therapist, but... is it really body dysmorphia when you really are ugly?

 

[SoLowHollow48]

A post about being chopped! My kind of post!

Me and my friend group are all chopped, especially by the standards of our culture here. We're not that white, we're not skinny or athletic, and we definitely do not have clear skin. When it comes to dating, we've all lost hope. We've all surrendered all expectations. At least, some of my friends that I know are like this. I too am one of them.

As a chopped girl, all I can say is... let us be ugly as fuck. That don't really matter as long as your other health issues are settled. I have a very bad case of eczema, I've tried going to doctors left and right and once I'm off the meds, the rashes and plaques all came back.

So, I said to myself, "Fuck it." And just be happy that I'm not like my mother who needs a machine to live and I'm not like others who have it worse than me. Okay, I'm chopped but at least all of my organs are functioning

Not what you wanna hear but I thought I'd put it out there.

One black pilled dude said here that you can afford any treatment you want with money--he's not wrong. But for the time being, with all the resources that you and I have, we just gotta set aside this ugliness issue and focus on the things that matter more: getting enough sleep, eating enough, having enough money, and having enough interaction with others to not go crazy.

 

[meddle]

A post about being chopped! My kind of post!

Me and my friend group are all chopped, especially by the standards of our culture here. We're not that white, we're not skinny or athletic, and we definitely do not have clear skin. When it comes to dating, we've all lost hope. We've all surrendered all expectations. At least, some of my friends that I know are like this. I too am one of them.

As a chopped girl, all I can say is... let us be ugly as fuck. That don't really matter as long as your other health issues are settled. I have a very bad case of eczema, I've tried going to doctors left and right and once I'm off the meds, the rashes and plaques all came back.

So, I said to myself, "Fuck it." And just be happy that I'm not like my mother who needs a machine to live and I'm not like others who have it worse than me. Okay, I'm chopped but at least all of my organs are functioning

Not what you wanna hear but I thought I'd put it out there.

One black pilled dude said here that you can afford any treatment you want with money--he's not wrong. But for the time being, with all the resources that you and I have, we just gotta set aside this ugliness issue and focus on the things that matter more: getting enough sleep, eating enough, having enough money, and having enough interaction with others to not go crazy.

thank you for your reply

i wouldnt want to do any surgeries, so yeah, i think bodyneutrality is the answer. i try to treat myself that way. but sadly my body isnt even particulary healthy since i got mental illness, haha

and its also humane to strive for the best. and its very humane to get upset if you cant meet your expectations. its not only about meeting beauty standarts, but also about your personality, about your knowledge and skills. its hard to accept that you are a mediocre human and not even a particulary good looking one i wish i could be something, i wish i could do something worthy. or if im incapable of that, then i wish i were at least ok

its just so devastating, when every area of your life sucks, haha

 

[Seneca65AD]

but... is it really body dysmorphia when you really are ugly?

If the opinion is coming from your own perception, then technically "yes", At least you'll give therapy a shot, and it's a lot cheaper than plastic surgery!!