Please consider staying alive. Im suicidal as well, but if there's any hope at all, pay attention to it. I know it's really hard to see past yourself right now and to see through the pain, but I just can't help but feel like I want things to work out for you. If I could make you feel better, which I don't presume I could, but that would be one more day I felt like I could keep going. I don't want to insult you, and I can't change your mind, but when I think of someone else going through with that it makes me so sad. It's really complicated, cause I know how frustrating it is to feel like people just can't understand, and they can't really, but I know how it feels to just want it to stop. I hope you can see a light. If not, have you thought about a mass text right before you jump? A mass text to really think about who you want to include, and why you want to include them. Best of luck with whatever you choose.