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Brayu
Student
- Sep 14, 2021
- 192
Damn, I can't do this decently... there's always something that stops me.
I'm already 23 years old and I'm still in this with Bipolar Disorder and a lot of grief on my back...
And they still say "if you wanted to, you would have already done it". That means if I scream for help no one else will listen! Damn that hurts a lot.
And I can hardly show weakness... I'll end up eating the damn castor bean on impulse and I'll die of pain or be repudiated forever...
I can't take it anymore... sometimes I'm hoping to be murdered or have an accident, things shouldn't be like that. This will never happen to me (maybe it will if I start to get better), it seems that unfortunately I'm immortal...
Stress gives me migraines almost every time.
I'm already 23 years old and I'm still in this with Bipolar Disorder and a lot of grief on my back...
And they still say "if you wanted to, you would have already done it". That means if I scream for help no one else will listen! Damn that hurts a lot.
And I can hardly show weakness... I'll end up eating the damn castor bean on impulse and I'll die of pain or be repudiated forever...
I can't take it anymore... sometimes I'm hoping to be murdered or have an accident, things shouldn't be like that. This will never happen to me (maybe it will if I start to get better), it seems that unfortunately I'm immortal...
Stress gives me migraines almost every time.