I'm supposed to ctb next week

[Thinking]

I've been planning for months. I have SN and Tagamet ready to go. I even wrote my notes. Everything is set up, but now I'm not sure I actually want to ctb.

What do I do? I feel like I'm weak of I fail to ctb

 

[sadworld]

If you are not sure then don't do it. Ctb is something permanent, so only do it if you are 100% sure.

 

[Ghost2211]

If you're not ready or don't want to CTB then let the bus wait. It will be there forever.

 

[WornOutLife]

I agree with the above comments. You gotta be 100% sure because the bus doesn't come back to this world once you get on it.
What about postponing your death date so that you have more time to think and decide?

 

[Silver]

I wrote my notes back in August, in fact didn't even expect to survive August. Still here. Just because you've set a date doesn't mean you need to go through it it on that date.

 

[SelfLiberation]

There's nothing wrong with taking a step back to rethink. Take all the time you need.

 

[Worndown]

I've been planning for months. I have SN and Tagamet ready to go. I even wrote my notes. Everything is set up, but now I'm not sure I actually want to ctb.

What do I do? I feel like I'm weak of I fail to ctb

This is a 100% or nothing type of action. Any doubt at all should make you stop and think.

 

[tidalwxves]

I've been planning for months. I have SN and Tagamet ready to go. I even wrote my notes. Everything is set up, but now I'm not sure I actually want to ctb.

What do I do? I feel like I'm weak of I fail to ctb

You aren't weak if you don't. It's a permanent decision that only you can make and should be made on your terms. It's doesn't make you weak, it is not your only option, it is one of many. Should you CTB I wish you peace, should you decide to live on there are tons of ways to make that work as well. You aren't limited and you aren't weak,

 

[grungeCat]

My SN should be delivered this Monday. Customs service control went suspicously well. I'm afraid I could have been scammed but only my own blood will show the truth.

Honestly I was very sure about my suicide but now when everything begins to be set up I start to hesitate too. Maybe I'm just shocked I didn't fuck up everything once in my life.

 

[Nurse T]

I've been planning for months. I have SN and Tagamet ready to go. I even wrote my notes. Everything is set up, but now I'm not sure I actually want to ctb.

What do I do? I feel like I'm weak of I fail to ctb

If you are not sure, please don't do it, it can't be undone if you take it and change your mind.
Mayb seek help if your wanting to try and make things work here on earth! X

 

[Deathbydemo]

If you're unsure, don't do it. I can't encourage that enough.