Venting I'm stuck

[Kadaver]

I was looking at the social media pages of people I used to know and they're all just living life like its normal. Some have partners and are married. Two of them had kids. Why is it that they moved forward and I didn't? What is it about me? I feel like I haven't taken a step forward since I turned 18 and I turn 23 in 2 days.

Part of me wants to find the tallest building I can and jump off of it. I'm useless; a burden to those I love because I can hardly take care of myself. They would be sad if I died but at least they wouldn't have me weighing them down anymore.

I made a post on a subreddit talking about my depression and feelings of hopelessness and nobody cared or said anything; my post was ignored. Usually this wouldn't bother me but I've just been so emotional lately. I feel so alone and like there truly nowhere for me to go from here. I feel like I've come as far as I can in life.

 

[Nikitatos]

23 is pretty young. You're lucky you don't have any major medical problems. I single and watched a lot of my friends get married and have kids. You kind of will go different ways for a while because family becomes your main priority if you start one.

You could try to meet new single people (there's lots of them in their 20s).

 

[shironeko]

I'm on your age too. I know that feel, and it's around me at every moment of my life.

I really hate this world when people ignoring, abandoning, even laughing and cursing with their hands clapping. They just got lucky so they didn't ended up like this.

I cut all ties to my past. Escaped from my home country, and every time I see my peers living in a normal life, my memories keeps coming back and tells me what I had lost and what I've suffered.

Loneliness, that is what this world gave us. No one can truly understand what's going on except yourself. Going through with all of these experiences, only to realize that life is just a matter of luck.

So I wish you to become lucky. I hope someday luck will some to your door, and resolves everything.

 

[Kadaver]

23 is pretty young. You're lucky you don't have any major medical problems. I single and watched a lot of my friends get married and have kids. You kind of will go different ways for a while because family becomes your main priority if you start one.

You could try to meet new single people (there's lots of them in their 20s).

I know I'm not old, I guess I just feel like I should have accomplished way more by now.

And its not really my friends that I see moving on; its the people that largely didn't even know me but I knew them. It just feels bad to feel stuck while everyone else around me seems to be moving forward.

Yeah I've tried dating but it never works well and I decided to give up until I'm further along in my transition. I'm also terrible at meeting people. I don't like tinder because of its rigid way of sorting people by sex and I never leave the house :/

I'm on your age too. I know that feel, and it's around me at every moment of my life.

I really hate this world when people ignoring, abandoning, even laughing and cursing with their hands clapping. They just got lucky so they didn't ended up like this.

I cut all ties to my past. Escaped from my home country, and every time I see my peers living in a normal life, my memories keeps coming back and tells me what I had lost and what I've suffered.

Loneliness, that is what this world gave us. No one can truly understand what's going on except yourself. Going through with all of these experiences, only to realize that life is just a matter of luck.

So I wish you to become lucky. I hope someday luck will some to your door, and resolves everything.

I feel you. I really wanted to escape my home town but im back. I thought I made it out but I didn't. I hate seeing people I used to know in real life.

Part of me wishes I could just disappear; change my name and number and leave everyone from my past behind. Just so that way I can sort of have a second chance. I doubt it would go well though.

I wish you luck too

 

[Manfrotto99]

I'm on your age too. I know that feel, and it's around me at every moment of my life.

I really hate this world when people ignoring, abandoning, even laughing and cursing with their hands clapping. They just got lucky so they didn't ended up like this.

I cut all ties to my past. Escaped from my home country, and every time I see my peers living in a normal life, my memories keeps coming back and tells me what I had lost and what I've suffered.

Loneliness, that is what this world gave us. No one can truly understand what's going on except yourself. Going through with all of these experiences, only to realize that life is just a matter of luck.

So I wish you to become lucky. I hope someday luck will some to your door, and resolves everything.

You are correct, it is very much about luck.

 

[NoPoint2Life]

I feel like I got stuck around age 18 and I'm 44 now. The worst is the feeling of never having anything to say when you run into someone from the past or that you don't see often whether it's online or irl. Their lives have probably changed dramatically and mine hasn't. Even when someone just asks "what's new " I never have anything to reply with.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

There's nothing lost with 23! Why would you care about what others did? It's their choice to marry at such a young age but I would never see it as a big achievement in such a young age. Also having kids is their choice but is it really a great achievement in such a young age? I only hope nothing goes wrong in their lives and their kids have to suffer bc of that.

I think you should go your way and don't compare yourself with others too much.

 

[Kadaver]

I feel like I got stuck around age 18 and I'm 44 now. The worst is the feeling of never having anything to say when you run into someone from the past or that you don't see often whether it's online or irl. Their lives have probably changed dramatically and mine hasn't. Even when someone just asks "what's new " I never have anything to reply with.

I panic when I see people from my past irl. I don't want to see them and be asked how I'm doing; I'm a terrible liar.

There's nothing lost with 23! Why would you care about what others did? It's their choice to marry at such a young age but I would never see it as a big achievement in such a young age. Also having kids is their choice but is it really a great achievement in such a young age? I only hope nothing goes wrong in their lives and their kids have to suffer bc of that.

I think you should go your way and don't compare yourself with others too much.

That's fair. I guess I'm mostly jealous of them for having a committed partner. I don't want kids. I think its also wild to me to see people who are younger than me becoming parents because like how are they emotionally ready for that responsibility?