Hi gang,
I'm marked as a new member, but I've had an account for a bit; I've just been a lurker. I've been suicidal since I was a kid (about nine), and now I'm in my 20s. I've had a few failed attempts. I've realized that even if good things happen to me, I make friends, or people find me likable, I can't fundamentally change who I am. I am five feet tall, male, overweight, and a borderline transgender incel. I pretend to be normal and likeable during the day, and I push my incel-type ideas down, but then I sit down with myself and realize I'm still who I am. I can pretend all that I want, but I am still a transgender incel. Nothing is going to change that I have giant tits and a vagina. Nothing is going to change that I look and act gay, and everyone thinks I'm gay. Nothing is going to change the fact that I'll never be a man. I'm stealth, and whenever anyone finds me out, I feel like I've just been shot. I get they/themed a lot anyway. I don't think there is any point to life if I'll never be a man or never be someone worthy of love, no matter what I do. I'm tired of being seen as a faggot when I don't even do anything wrong. There is no changing what I am or what I look like, and it makes me so angry. I want to blame someone (whether it's God or my parents or the universe or my ancestors), but I always draw a blank. If I had a gun, I'd shoot myself.
Transness isn't normal, no matter what anyone tells you. It isn't beautiful or good. It's inherently disgusting and abnormal, and no one should be trans, period.
I'm marked as a new member, but I've had an account for a bit; I've just been a lurker. I've been suicidal since I was a kid (about nine), and now I'm in my 20s. I've had a few failed attempts. I've realized that even if good things happen to me, I make friends, or people find me likable, I can't fundamentally change who I am. I am five feet tall, male, overweight, and a borderline transgender incel. I pretend to be normal and likeable during the day, and I push my incel-type ideas down, but then I sit down with myself and realize I'm still who I am. I can pretend all that I want, but I am still a transgender incel. Nothing is going to change that I have giant tits and a vagina. Nothing is going to change that I look and act gay, and everyone thinks I'm gay. Nothing is going to change the fact that I'll never be a man. I'm stealth, and whenever anyone finds me out, I feel like I've just been shot. I get they/themed a lot anyway. I don't think there is any point to life if I'll never be a man or never be someone worthy of love, no matter what I do. I'm tired of being seen as a faggot when I don't even do anything wrong. There is no changing what I am or what I look like, and it makes me so angry. I want to blame someone (whether it's God or my parents or the universe or my ancestors), but I always draw a blank. If I had a gun, I'd shoot myself.
Transness isn't normal, no matter what anyone tells you. It isn't beautiful or good. It's inherently disgusting and abnormal, and no one should be trans, period.
