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MothyCuddler
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- Jan 12, 2023
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I've already decided, and laid it out in my suicide note, that the money left in my bank account should be used by my family to go towards grief councelling. Originally I wanted it to be donated to the Samaritans, but since I've decided that this is my family's money, and money they're going to use to lessen the impact of my suicide, I feel guilty over every penny I'm spending. And yeah, this is at odds with me wanting to enjoy my last few weeks by treating myself more than usual. It's just tough. I can't live anymore, but I'll never be able to explain things well enough to justify what I'm doing, in their eyes. The only thing I can do to tangibly make this easier on them is leaving this money behind.