sadstuffie
Student
- Aug 11, 2020
- 157
im doing really really bad tonight. it's weird cause for the past few days i had been feelin super euphoric,,but maybe that's just the bpd :(. i want to believe i was happy for a reason, but idk i hate having bpd cause it's making me feel like none of my emotions are my own??? what if that's true? i dont like that. :(
i feel like everyone is happier without me. what if im the one that makes everything worse? me being gone might make everything better? im also struggling with so much internalized homophobia ,it's worse than it's ever been , sometimes i really hate that im a lesbian.
im sorry im not making any sense. im sorry for posting here, i know no one will care. im sorry.
i feel like everyone is happier without me. what if im the one that makes everything worse? me being gone might make everything better? im also struggling with so much internalized homophobia ,it's worse than it's ever been , sometimes i really hate that im a lesbian.
im sorry im not making any sense. im sorry for posting here, i know no one will care. im sorry.