Venting I'm so tired, i want to give up but i know i can't yet.

[Gstreater]

My great grandmother died last night and I'm not even sure if I'll be able to go to her funeral or wake since it might be in Florida. I'm so damn tired I've been slipping even further and this isn't helping. I've been self harming everyday, losing my appetite, and the only thing I force myself to do is talk to people. It's a stupid distraction so I don't get acclimated to the pain I inflict on myself too quickly since I do it so much already.