Venting I’m so suicidal and going crazy from being alive that I will take steps to insure I die whichever it takes

[idelttoilfsadness21]

I am suppose to be taking a break because I am going mad and I need space too from talking to anyone currently as I am delirious with emotional trauma and feel the tense feelings and pain that I realized I could fall down a flight of stairs in my weak condition during my period or get crushed by something heavy. I am that desperate!! Thankfully my move was upheld but if I can't drown or have my sn soon (I have the money, I'm just tired knowing I'll never find my place to take as my death bed), I will do whichever it takes and I am not joking!! I don't know why I never thought of that but I'll do what I can to not be saved or found out but I am so sad everyday knowing I'm alive and knowing I am in this much pain because I feel like everything about me is cursed and I want to feel the stars again… :((
I don't suffer from my hormones during my period or anything… I'm just tired by life itself and want our as fast as possible :((

 

[itwillhappensoon]

I'm sorry things have to be this way for you , I hope you find the peace you are looking for