Venting I'm so sick of having to keep on living

[thereisnomeaning]

It's fucking exhausting to try and getting up, doing my chores, studying, looking for a job, trying not to fail in anything when I don't wanna be alive for the next day
It's exhausting to be working for a future I don't want to live in
But I have a person who depends on me and I can't just stop doing my shit while I'm here
I mean, I plan on CTB but I can't just not give a fuck about life before I'm able to
I couldn't sleep at all last night and now I'm doing my chores before going to uni and I'm nearly crying, I don't want any of that anymore

 

[I'mGoingUnder]

I feel the exact same why. Why should I keep waking up everyday, going to work, studying, be with my friends and family, when in the end, I am just "preparing" myself for a life I do not want in the first place?

 

[FuneralCry]

It certainly can be so tiring having to endure this futile struggle that leads to nowhere other than us ceasing to exist anyway. At least to me there could never be anything appealing about having to exist, there is nothing more ideal than being able to sleep for all eternity.