i’m so sick and tired of being sick and tired

[bakedbombshell]

Before you all think i'm a misunderstood 18 year old girl...I've wanted to kill myself since 8th grade. It's never gotten better no matter what I try. Besides the basic homelessness and adoption and parents dying and rape by teacher and some other pointless details..i've basically fucked up the one chance i had of going somewhere with my life. I had a car, a scholarship for mt 4 year college, a full time job, it was going good. Until i crashed the fucking car and the last of my hopes and dreams. No collision coverage because my parents don't talk to me and how as i supposed to know that. Now i have 500$ to pay college because I can't go anymore becaue of transportation, 2000 in credit card debt because i'm an idiot and got scammed, no job because i listen my job along with my car(transportation), still have to FIX MY CAR, and 155$ for the citation! now i'm just sitting in my room crying feeling guilty and shitty because no me else fucks up like i do and i just can't even stand to look at myself , worse than before. because i had it, i had the chance, i fucking ducked it up and i hate myself so much for it. I wish i could go back in time but I can't. The next best thing is suicide. But the psych ward just sucks when you fail. It makes it worse. Help. I just. Do t know. Anymore.

 

[I'm un a mess]

Hi

How far is it your job ? I ask because you can use byclycle or ask a friend to bring you to the job if really things doesn't get better we will help you

 

[LMFAO FOCKERS]

Are there any counselors at school that could help you find cheap housing on/near campus? Counselors usually want to help students keep their scholarship money when possible.

 

[bakedbombshell]

Are there any counselors at school that could help you find cheap housing on/near campus? Counselors usually want to help students keep their scholarship money when possible.

i already took the leave for a year so i can get my shit together...or not we will see

Hi

How far is it your job ? I ask because you can use byclycle or ask a friend to bring you to the job if really things doesn't get better we will help you

45 minute walk, i'm just not looking forward to winter and i don't have any stamina on my bike for the hills

 

[Dawn0071111]

Wow, that is a lot of resposibility for an 18 year old, let alone any single human being. Your trying to do school, take care of yourself financially, and without the help of family.. it can be almost hopless with one one has to do all on your own. And the thing is that your age you should have a safety net where you're allowed to make mistakes without each one determining whether or not you're going to completely fail.. it so unfortunate... Im sorry your struggling so much. It should not have to be this way, to be so young and life already letting you down...

 

[GHOST99]

Girl, are you me? Same situation; suicidal in 8th grade, no parents, first year in college but am taking leave soon, used to have a good job, and then a totaled car... Life is exhausting, especially during this time for you- at 18 and trying to fix things alone. Whatever potential I had was wasted, we're just trying to survive instead of being alive.

I hope the stress you're going through to stops. idk if I'm just projecting bc of mutual suffering but I feel this pain so much, I'm not too good at socializing, but if you ever want to vent, message me.

 

[bakedbombshell]

Girl, are you me? Same situation; suicidal in 8th grade, no parents, first year in college but am taking leave soon, used to have a good job, and then a totaled car... Life is exhausting, especially during this time for you- at 18 and trying to fix things alone. Whatever potential I had was wasted, we're just trying to survive instead of being alive.

I hope the stress you're going through to stops. idk if I'm just projecting bc of mutual suffering but I feel this pain so much, I'm not too good at socializing, but if you ever want to vent, message me.

I'd love to message you and a few other people...haven't figured out how to PM yet

 

[mk47]

I'd love to message you and a few other people...haven't figured out how to PM yet

Where in mass are you located?

 

[bakedbombshell]

yes you were one of the ones i wanted to talk to. i live about 45 minutes from boston and i'm in the black stone valley area near uxbridge and upton and auburn and shit.

 

[mk47]

yes you were one of the ones i wanted to talk to. i live about 45 minutes from boston and i'm in the black stone valley area near uxbridge and upton and auburn and shit.

Download wickr on your phone and we can chat securely. My username is mk478

 

[bakedbombshell]

Download wickr on your phone and we can chat securely. My username is mk478

i'm sorry :( i can't download anything on my phone right now because i don't have a valid payment method yet i haven't started working yet. i start work wednesday but that also means i realistically have to wait like a week and a half for the check. i am attempting to download it on my computer though! if i message you on wickr you will know if it worked or not haha

 

[mk47]

i'm sorry :( i can't download anything on my phone right now because i don't have a valid payment method yet i haven't started working yet. i start work wednesday but that also means i realistically have to wait like a week and a half for the check. i am attempting to download it on my computer though! if i message you on wickr you will know if it worked or not haha

There is a computer app for wickr

Also my email is [email protected]

 

[bakedbombshell]

There is a computer app for wickr

Also my email is [email protected]

i think i invited back you i am scarlet fruit

 

[JimFord99]

Hey baked bombshell,

I sincerely hope you reported the teacher for doing this to you? I gather you have someone nearby to talk to, will you? Even historic rape case will be investigated nowadays. Sorry this happened to you, but please don't let it rest this way.

 

[bakedbombshell]

Hey baked bombshell,

I sincerely hope you reported the teacher for doing this to you? I gather you have someone nearby to talk to, will you? Even historic rape case will be investigated nowadays. Sorry this happened to you, but please don't let it rest this way.

he went to jail actually for having child porn i his house and he had a wife and kids so husband life is fucked more than mine probably

 

[JimFord99]

he went to jail actually for having child porn i his house and he had a wife and kids so husband life is fucked more than mine probably

But not for raping you. So, no, his life is not as fucked as yours. Do it, please, get justice and get some of your peace back.

 

[I'm un a mess]

i already took the leave for a year so i can get my shit together...or not we will see

45 minute walk, i'm just not looking forward to winter and i don't have any stamina on my bike for the hills

Sell it and buy one electric