Venting Im so fucking lonely it hurts

[mistymoo]

I'm so sick of living like this. I don't have any friends anymore. I used to always have a huge friend group and at least SOMEONE who cared but now there's no one. I ruined my whole fucking life and I don't know how to cope. Usually I'd just take some extra sleeping meds and sleep for 12 - 20 hrs but it's not working anymore. I'm becoming an insomniac and it's not fucking fair.

I KNOW i can make a difference in this world and help others but when do I get the love and help I give others. My heart hurts so much. At this point I don't think it's fair to stay alive to help others when it's only hurting me. Hell, im scared shitless to get close to anyone else. I long to be loved again. I wish I could have a hug and be told what to do or shown a future where I'm truly happy

 

[UnrulyNightmare]

Life isn't fair! I recognize your pain and longing. I'm afraid we live in a world where most people just take and take without giving back.
Insomnia sucks and can drive you crazy..

You do deserve just as much love and happiness as everyone else!

If you want to chat my dm's open :)

 

[itsalittlecold]

I relate to the loneliness, the only people who I hear off are my sister & my ex when she wants to rant to feel better.. I vented about it on fb about how I'd love to just be invited places or just be asked how my day was. I have 1.5k friends and only 2 commented and just told me to be happy with myself- like I spent half the vent saying how much I love myself and think I'm actually pretty decent.
I won't even risk getting close to females anymore the thought of feelings and the likely outcome I'd just rather not.

I went from been at peace, to the only thing stressing me in life is delaying my ctb everyday.

Someone once told me about empaths, they have the natural gift to heal- at the cost of themselves & I think I understand it

 

[mistymoo]

I relate to the loneliness, the only people who I hear off are my sister & my ex when she wants to rant to feel better.. I vented about it on fb about how I'd love to just be invited places or just be asked how my day was. I have 1.5k friends and only 2 commented and just told me to be happy with myself- like I spent half the vent saying how much I love myself and think I'm actually pretty decent.
I won't even risk getting close to females anymore the thought of feelings and the likely outcome I'd just rather not.

I went from been at peace, to the only thing stressing me in life is delaying my ctb everyday.

Someone once told me about empaths, they have the natural gift to heal- at the cost of themselves & I think I understand it

I'm so sorry to hear you're experiencing the same pain as me. It's not fair that your ex only reaches out for selfish reasons. I understand what you mean by healing at the cost of themselves. I feel it deep in my bones

Life isn't fair! I recognize your pain and longing. I'm afraid we live in a world where most people just take and take without giving back.
Insomnia sucks and can drive you crazy..

You do deserve just as much love and happiness as everyone else!

If you want to chat my dm's open :)

Thank you for your response and relating to me. I might reach out and dm you. I'm just so scared to get close to anyone, especially on here

 

[dreamcatcher90]

I can relate.

Due to my mental illness, I have no friends left. I am alone most of the time. Mental illness and meds made me fat and unattractive. Plus I am over 30.

I hope that you're still young and your situation can improve.

 

[Raven2]

I have a couple of friends but rarely actually meet up. I just long for a connection with someone. You are not alone in how you feel

 

[UnrulyNightmare]

Thank you for your response and relating to me. I might reach out and dm you. I'm just so scared to get close to anyone, especially on here

I hear ya, it's scary.. Anxiety holds me back from talking to people a lot. Even reacting to a post is a whole thing for me.

I can promise you to listen and share as little or much as you want. I have no bad intentions and I am looking for someone to chat to, to try and ease my loneliness a bit and see if I can do the same for the others.
But if you don't want to that's absolutely fine too

 

[yunzzzk]

I used to have a group of friends too, but I became full of negativity, they would always approach me when they feel upset/concerned about their daily life, but no one could really understand me or stay with me when I am upset. So I left that group of friends. However, I stayed open to new people, I don't really carry on what happened to me before to the next person. I guess that is why I get hurt a lot.

 

[N33dT0D13]

I can very much relate... I desperately want friendship and love, deep close love, platonic, romantic... Mostly platonic tbh but also I'm terrified of getting to know more people, I know how I am and don't want to waste their time or upset them.

I believe you can make a difference, too. I hope things get better.