Promortalistic4Life
Efilist
- May 29, 2020
- 47
They're badass and mentally and emotionally hard as steel. Their training and selection course are agonizing and the hardest military programs in the world and only few have the willpower to fight through hell. When they take part in a CQC (= close quarters combat) action they're tactical methods are remarkable, the way they clean out rooms with such professionalism. They are capable to control their minds like a firebreather controls his fire, and this is how they can resist interrogation when captured by enemy forces. They rappel down and kick in windows, arise from deep-sea and take the enemy by stealth and just wear those badass gears and night-vision googles and gas masks. My brother was obsessed with them as well, and wanted to join the KSK, but he didn't out of ethical reasons/his christian beliefs and to not hurt our mom. I never talked about it with anyone, as I know that people outside this forum would judge me for my desires so I'd be too ashamed to admit it but I would absolutely love to parttake in such selection (even if I would fail) and just being like my heros, just a bit. I'm also a massive fan of these MTF special ops units from the SCP universe. They are responsible for capturing and containing these dangerous, paranormal anomalies (SCPs; SCPs aren't neccessarely monsters, ghosts or demons they can also be cursed rooms, environments, items whatever). If only I could find a way out of my problems, and (I don't believe in the supernatural but whatever) be one of these MTF operators and go on a house raid in the middle of the night to capture an anomaly... fucking hell.
Scene from the horror-short SCP: Dollhouse (2019). Perhaps the best movie I've ever seen. Usually, in Hollywood horror-blockbusters, it's often just a bunch of unaware, panicky teenagers encountering sth beyond life. Here they already have somewhat of a clue what they're dealing with, and send in these highly-trained special forces operators to deal with the ethereal threat. But, even though they're so well-trained and prepared and armored, only 3 out of 6 of these men leave the Dollhouse...
If only OCD wouldn't fuck up my life. If only I could have a SOMEWHAT healthy mind. If only I could live freely without intrusions, LIVE. If only I could be just like my brother, just like these guys. But to me it seems like death is the only answer. I feel like I'm at a point in my life where I can control my depression and my existential dread. Not my OCD though.
Scene from the horror-short SCP: Dollhouse (2019). Perhaps the best movie I've ever seen. Usually, in Hollywood horror-blockbusters, it's often just a bunch of unaware, panicky teenagers encountering sth beyond life. Here they already have somewhat of a clue what they're dealing with, and send in these highly-trained special forces operators to deal with the ethereal threat. But, even though they're so well-trained and prepared and armored, only 3 out of 6 of these men leave the Dollhouse...
If only OCD wouldn't fuck up my life. If only I could have a SOMEWHAT healthy mind. If only I could live freely without intrusions, LIVE. If only I could be just like my brother, just like these guys. But to me it seems like death is the only answer. I feel like I'm at a point in my life where I can control my depression and my existential dread. Not my OCD though.