okay ill look, im just so tired so idk if i even wanna get better
its not loneliness at all. i have a lot of people in my life. its just everything else. my life has been shit since day one. i dont think my problems can be fixed
im not pretty at all and i have bad mental problems. i dont have a feminine body imo and i constantly mess up everything with my mental state. i suspect i have bpd but havent had the chance to talk to a psychiatrist or whatever about it. ik its hard to be diagnosed with because its so hated and whatever. its also a complex illness.
I wish that this forum wasn't so anonymous sometimes, because when you say your undesirable, that may not truly be the case. You'll be surprised what women go thru to become desirable like goin to the gym regularly, wearing transforming makeup that does wonders, wearing wigs, nails done, certain attractive styles of dress, confidence, teeth done, surgery, etc, And even if they are not attractive to everyone, they find someone that is. If I wasn't extremely struggling due to major depression, medical problems, unemployment, and etc, then I would focus on these things to really see how attractive I can be, but my problems are even deeper. Anyway, I know how not feeling attractive can make someone feel, but it's a shame for it to make someone suffer so much, you're more than how you look. You may have a great personality & spirit that can do so much for others and yourself.
ive tried everything. i just wanna be naturally pretty. i cant even go to the gym or anything because of health issues too. i wish i was like those girls on social media. its not fair how as soon as someone is out of the beauty standard they're considered hideous /:
Dont you have a boyfriend? He did find you attractive, otherwise he wouldnt have dated you. There are probably tonnes of men that would want to date you.
