Venting I'm so desperate and tempted to drink SN

[spanishguy22]

But I can't. Im suffering so much. I was in denial that I could cure my depression until a month ago. My whole life is a nightmare since a long time but a lot more now.
I need to die really. Im hurting a lot. But I'm too scared to take SN and have damage if anything goes wrong. I'm very paranoid about that because Im terrified at the thought of being disabled or vegetable with crippling depression for 60 more years. I can't.
But it's really hard to wait I know I need to it right and access several methods but I will need money work and time for that. Such a daunting task fuck.

 

[Escaper Boy]

I can totally relate to this. I felt closer and closer to giving up as days passed. I already had my SN ready, and as you said, the temptation to drink it is so real. I wish life can be slightly more bearable, unfortunately it's not really the case.

Either way, I sincerely hope things will go well for you, whichever choice you take.

 

[spanishguy22]

I can totally relate to this. I felt closer and closer to giving up as days passed. I already had my SN ready, and as you said, the temptation to drink it is so real. I wish life can be slightly more bearable, unfortunately it's not really the case.

Either way, I sincerely hope things will go well for you, whichever choice you take.

Thanks dude.
I've been locked in a room for 12 years alone with no friends. I'm so miserable and how I fucked up my life. I had such a fucking future like so many here. It's sickening to not be able to live life. It's literally torture for years but I had grown accustomed to this. Can't take it anymore

 

[Fatality]

I read in other posts on here that SN causes no damage to your body if you fail, so I do not think you have anything to be scared of.

 

[spanishguy22]

I read in other posts on here that SN causes no damage to your body if you fail, so I do not think you have anything to be scared of.

It's known to cause brain hypoxia though. We really don't know yet but it's true it's not looking bad

 

[Fatality]

It's known to cause brain hypoxia though. We really don't know yet but it's true it's not looking bad

I did not know that, what is brain hypoxia ?

 

[JadedGray]

I did not know that, what is brain hypoxia ?

Brain injury caused by lack of oxygen.

 

[Fatality]

Brain injury caused by lack of oxygen.

Thank you.

 

[Socrates Augustus]

Thanks dude.
I've been locked in a room for 12 years alone with no friends. I'm so miserable and how I fucked up my life. I had such a fucking future like so many here. It's sickening to not be able to live life. It's literally torture for years but I had grown accustomed to this. Can't take it anymore

What age are you? I am 25 without friends, I hope I can change things. I have been alone for 4 years.

 

[JadedGray]

Thank you.

You're welcome.

 

[letmeseethedeath]

But I can't. Im suffering so much. I was in denial that I could cure my depression until a month ago. My whole life is a nightmare since a long time but a lot more now.
I need to die really. Im hurting a lot. But I'm too scared to take SN and have damage if anything goes wrong. I'm very paranoid about that because Im terrified at the thought of being disabled or vegetable with crippling depression for 60 more years. I can't.
But it's really hard to wait I know I need to it right and access several methods but I will need money work and time for that. Such a daunting task fuck.

i feel you. i feel in the same way as you feel. i already have my SN, i'm waiting for my brave. we need eternal peace because this life is hurting us so much

 

[Davy]

Is there a single case where someone has permanent damage from taking SN?
I can't find any, it's all either death or recovery.

 

[JustOverIt]

It's known to cause brain hypoxia though. We really don't know yet but it's true it's not looking bad

Yes the mechanism of action is hypoxia but there is no significant risk of brain damage due to a failed SN attempt. If you are doubting your will to drink the SN sober perhaps you should consider trying to acquire benzodiazepines or codeine (the two most semi-easy to fudge out of a GP).

 

[spanishguy22]

Yes the mechanism of action is hypoxia but there is no significant risk of brain damage due to a failed SN attempt. If you are doubting your will to drink the SN sober perhaps you should consider trying to acquire benzodiazepines or codeine (the two most semi-easy to fudge out of a GP).

Nah as long as I'm scared of that I just can't do it. I'll need to wait for better methods or try to change my thinking somehow

 

[JustOverIt]

Nah as long as I'm scared of that I just can't do it. I'll need to wait for better methods or try to change my thinking somehow

You realise all methods involve depriving your brain of oxygen some way or another right? How else would you die?

 

[spanishguy22]

i feel you. i feel in the same way as you feel. i already have my SN, i'm waiting for my brave. we need eternal peace because this life is hurting us so much

Hugs

You realise all methods involve depriving your brain of oxygen some way or another right?

Yes my plan is shotgun+N or Azide that way I will make sure. Do it in water or something too. I seem crazy but I really value the feeling that I know I'll die for sure. But for those methods I'll need to wait a year and it seems so hard

 

[tomz323]

So SN is the best method to CTB right?

 

[spanishguy22]

So SN is the best method to CTB right?

not really. Popular yes. But it has downside

 

[Jen Erik]

So SN is the best method to CTB right?

It really depends on what you mean by 'best'.

 

[Oppenheimer]

I thought N was considered the best. Like, after you take you sleep and don´t wake and die fast. I think with SN it take hours and you can awake during it, and it´s not comfortable.