NocturnalDistortion
Member
- Dec 30, 2025
- 11
I wish I had a best friend to hang out with. Someone who is around the same age as me. I remember watching Bratz, Winx Club and My Little Pony and yearning for that kind of feminine, affectionate, supportive friend group. However, I don't need a whole friendgroup, I would love to have one best friend. I know it's mostly due to my actions,
I am hesitant to meeting people because I'm just too mentally exhausted at the moment for filtering out the healthy vs. unhealthy people, becoming friends with someone and then finding out later that they had negative intentions towards me, so I am putting it off for now.
I also realize that there are bigger priorities right now, I need to focus on my health and finances. Also, why should I expect others to want me if all I do is lay in bed all day and I'm too boring/socially clumsy to talk to? I should get some hobbies, work on my social skills and appearance and develop myself as a person before I make a good friend. I have more damning things to tackle than having a best friend, but the loneliness keeps persisting.
So maybe I don't want a best friend, I want to stop wanting a best friend, that's my frustration. I wish I could turn that loneliness off like a button.
I am hesitant to meeting people because I'm just too mentally exhausted at the moment for filtering out the healthy vs. unhealthy people, becoming friends with someone and then finding out later that they had negative intentions towards me, so I am putting it off for now.
I also realize that there are bigger priorities right now, I need to focus on my health and finances. Also, why should I expect others to want me if all I do is lay in bed all day and I'm too boring/socially clumsy to talk to? I should get some hobbies, work on my social skills and appearance and develop myself as a person before I make a good friend. I have more damning things to tackle than having a best friend, but the loneliness keeps persisting.
So maybe I don't want a best friend, I want to stop wanting a best friend, that's my frustration. I wish I could turn that loneliness off like a button.
