I'm scared

[SuicidalSymphonies]

A user who has been on here that I've been talking back and forth with sent me a goodbye message at 4:52AM this morning. I had blacked out from pain and was unable to answer and now he isn't responding to me and hasn't been online here or on there since.

He had plans to go at a certain date and tonight was not supposed to be that night. I pleaded he not do it on impulse but I fear he did anyway and I never got to say goodbye.

No goodbye post on the forum even for me to wish him a smooth journey. I'm at a loss for words. If he really is gone... I don't want to mention his username for privacy reasons but I'm gutted right now.

I hope he's just somewhere cooling down from his attack... And he said he would be drinking and allow his drunk mind to make the decision for him. I know most of us plan to ctb but something like this just not something I handle very well.

I'm sorry for venting.. Again. Just very upset.

 

[Wreck-it-Riley]

I hope you get the answers you need. Going off plan is frightening.

 

[SuicidalSymphonies]

I hope you get the answers you need. Going off plan is frightening.

It is... I want him to have peace and he hasn't ordered his SN yet so he may have gone the NN route. I'm not sure, I just don't think impulse brings peace.

 

[WelcomingPain]

If he truly is gone, I'm sorry for your loss. I get pretty sad when people allow their impaired mental state to make up their mind for them. I really wish you the best and I hope your friend is okay. If he ctb, then I hope he found peace.

 

[SuicidalSymphonies]

If he truly is gone, I'm sorry for your loss. I get pretty sad when people allow their impaired mental state to make up their mind for them. I really wish you the best and I hope your friend is okay. If he ctb, then I hope he found peace.

Thank you so much... x I'm going to cry.

 

[Lara Francis]

A user who has been on here that I've been talking back and forth with sent me a goodbye message at 4:52AM this morning. I had blacked out from pain and was unable to answer and now he isn't responding to me and hasn't been online here or on there since.

He had plans to go at a certain date and tonight was not supposed to be that night. I pleaded he not do it on impulse but I fear he did anyway and I never got to say goodbye.

No goodbye post on the forum even for me to wish him a smooth journey. I'm at a loss for words. If he really is gone... I don't want to mention his username for privacy reasons but I'm gutted right now.

I hope he's just somewhere cooling down from his attack... And he said he would be drinking and allow his drunk mind to make the decision for him. I know most of us plan to ctb but something like this just not something I handle very well.

I'm sorry for venting.. Again. Just very upset.

Hi.
I am sorry.we often find the most valuable people at the worst times in our lives.
Sometimes,it may be friendships we have never had before and its natural to form attatchments as it is to feel sad when they pass even though we respect and understand their decision.
I hope that he maybe just in a drunk sleep and will message you soon so you are able to say your goodbyes .

 

[SuicidalSymphonies]

Hi.
I am sorry.we often find the most valuable people at the worst times in our lives.
Sometimes,it may be friendships we have never had before and its natural to form attatchments as it is to feel sad when they pass even though we respect and understand their decision.
I hope that he maybe just in a drunk sleep and will message you soon so you are able to say your goodbyes .

Thank you, it's true. I just hope he's passed out somewhere in his house or something. I don't know..

 

[WelcomingPain]

Thank you so much... x I'm going to cry.

Anytime. I'm always here to listen. Feel free to PM me if you're still worried about your friend or need to vent some more. <3

 

[Soul]

I'm sorry you're bereft, @SuicidalSymphonies. I hope you get closure regarding your friend. (((Hugs)))

 

[SuicidalSymphonies]

I'm sorry you're bereft, @SuicidalSymphonies. I hope you get closure regarding your friend. (((Hugs)))

I hope I get some closure too... x