I have ordered the means to CTB and it has shipped. This is suddenly gettting real and I'm scared. I'm not an impulsive person and I don''t think I'm going to do it unless ready. But I'm really scared. I still want to have a normal life. But I have recurrent MDD. And I don't want to feel lonely. Or homeless as the market is really though for my profession now and if I get fired I don't think I'll find another job.
I thought this would give me peace of mind but I'm terrified now. Crying like a little child. My life sucks, and dying also sucks.
I thought this would give me peace of mind but I'm terrified now. Crying like a little child. My life sucks, and dying also sucks.
