dead22222
i am the animal i am an animal
- Jun 20, 2023
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Am i fucked if i just discovered i am a narcissist and I am controlled by patterns and emotions I barely can remember and even understand and percieve? People say this shits incurable and youll never be a full self and youre corrupted from developmental issues that are so deep you cant even touch it. All i feel is a well of rage inside me and that I am nothing just fucking garbage corrupted nothing
I dont even care if i feel good or something I am nothing how fucking useless and worthless to the human race
WHY IS EVERYTHING ALWAYS WORSE
Also to clarify i dont go out of my way to harm people and manipulate, i have a extremely unstable sense of self that is authentic and i use a false self to gain regulation from others and protect my extremely fragile ego. Also i cannot see myself apart from others in conversation. I only learned this shit after self reflection recently, i was unaware before narcissism doesnt have to look like a really loud and boastful person although it can. I am extemely afraid of people in real life. Also narcissim is very similar to bpd and many traits and shit can cross over and appear like mixed within a person and I think thats whats happening to me.
People with a very strong false self who are very functional in real life are able to hide thier feelings really well and not be punctured easily and feel like nothing, these are the people you typically think of with narcissism. If you have a weak false self and are unable to keep it up you deflate easily and feel like a complete shit worthless human even after a very small percieved humilation
I dont even care if i feel good or something I am nothing how fucking useless and worthless to the human race
WHY IS EVERYTHING ALWAYS WORSE
Also to clarify i dont go out of my way to harm people and manipulate, i have a extremely unstable sense of self that is authentic and i use a false self to gain regulation from others and protect my extremely fragile ego. Also i cannot see myself apart from others in conversation. I only learned this shit after self reflection recently, i was unaware before narcissism doesnt have to look like a really loud and boastful person although it can. I am extemely afraid of people in real life. Also narcissim is very similar to bpd and many traits and shit can cross over and appear like mixed within a person and I think thats whats happening to me.
People with a very strong false self who are very functional in real life are able to hide thier feelings really well and not be punctured easily and feel like nothing, these are the people you typically think of with narcissism. If you have a weak false self and are unable to keep it up you deflate easily and feel like a complete shit worthless human even after a very small percieved humilation
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