Venting I'm really truly realizing how unsalvageable and fucked I am at this point...

[JustKillBen22]

For years I've had thoughts in the back of my mind that my state and depression and anxiety isn't that bad compared to other people, that maybe I COULD get better. No. No I can not, ever. This will be who I am until the day I fucking die, I am never going to change, I'm gonna keep hurting people, and driving them away, and living with constant anxiety and stress and self hatred, and yet I'm too scared to even die. I don't know what I want, I don't even know why I'm making this thread, this isn't fair, I am trapped and my head is fucked and I don't know what to do.

 

[WornOutLife]

I also thought I could get better and deal with LIFE but I find it impossible. I'll just be like a vegetable for some more time and then "goodbye universe!"

 

[Dead beat dad]

Not alone brother. I feel this