Venting Im ready to do it but i'm scared of hell

[requifiedneed]

I have been keeping the same ideas in my mind for years but only now that i'm an adult feel like i'm genuinely ready to do it. I was born in a very very very Christian family and the idea of hell & heaven isnt something new for me. But i'm really scared about going to hell, literally the only thing that kept me alive this last year was hentai and pornography, both which as far as i'm aware are sins i feel like a disgusting pervert. I don't deserve life or the oportunities it has given me. I wish i had a brother so maybe my parents wouldnt feel so dissapointed of me.

 

[lemonbunny]

faith and repentance will give you salvation according to the Bible. you can look at the criminal who died on the cross beside Jesus as an example of it's never too late. your sins do not damn you to hell irredeemably.

i do relate to you though, because in my current state i certainly feel like i deserve hell regardless of spiritual logic.

 

[sserafim]

Hell doesn't exist, so you're good. Honestly, the concept of a place to suffer even more after death does not make sense to me. If God actually existed, he would acknowledge your pain and not force you to suffer eternally in hell. He would allow you non-existence after death

 

[garbagepunk]

from what i have been taght in my christian childhood, god will valorate the love you have for him and true intends of being a person of good over every sin you have commited. but for one, the one that can't be forgiven, suicide
mainly one of the reasons i don't want to ctb all that much

 

[Foreverix]

I'm an atheist, former Christian. Biblically, suicide is a sin due to it being self murder, but it's nowhere listed as the unpardonable sin. All of these sins you listed are forgivable within this paradigm, so just ask for forgiveness. If the Bible is true, Jesus died for all of your sins, and there is no condemnation for those who believe.

But I believe all of that is nonsensical and, ultimately, God would be responsible for every woe in your life if he exists. After all, he created everything, and logically it's hard not to arrive at the conclusion that he is the author of evil.

 

[FuneralCry]

I see religion as just being a way to brainwash people personally, it must be dreadful having those fears but in my case I see this existence as being the only hell, I very strongly believe death to be peaceful non-existence, free from all suffering and harm. To me the thought of death erasing all we knew is the only relief.