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dopaminedeath
Student
- Nov 12, 2022
- 167
Im ready but the thing that causes me the most anxiety is how my parents will react and the effect on other family too.
I really want them to see it as an inevitability, as euthanasia decided on from a clear head. I worry about them blaming themselves or others when this has nothing to do with anything outside my own perspective. Its a selfish decision and its one that Im happiest with.
I know suicide is generally looked upon as a tragedy and so they may be left wondering what they could have done differently. Like I imagine they may overthink things and struggle to cope maybe.
How do I get past this anxiety? Is it SI masquerading as concern for them? Whatever it is, I don't know how to overcome it in a way that I feel satisfied to leave
All I have is the suicide note/letter to communicate. I can write something and then scrape it and write again. But it never leaves me feeling like I think they will be okay because of these words.
Considering my sibling has potentially forty years left to live after I die, I really don't want them to get confused and think things could be different. This is the way it is and I'm at peace with it, and whether now or looking back in forty years, I hope they accept it as being okay. As even if its considered an early death, it's not wrong to me. It's simply is the end, neither good nor bad.
I really want them to see it as an inevitability, as euthanasia decided on from a clear head. I worry about them blaming themselves or others when this has nothing to do with anything outside my own perspective. Its a selfish decision and its one that Im happiest with.
I know suicide is generally looked upon as a tragedy and so they may be left wondering what they could have done differently. Like I imagine they may overthink things and struggle to cope maybe.
How do I get past this anxiety? Is it SI masquerading as concern for them? Whatever it is, I don't know how to overcome it in a way that I feel satisfied to leave
All I have is the suicide note/letter to communicate. I can write something and then scrape it and write again. But it never leaves me feeling like I think they will be okay because of these words.
Considering my sibling has potentially forty years left to live after I die, I really don't want them to get confused and think things could be different. This is the way it is and I'm at peace with it, and whether now or looking back in forty years, I hope they accept it as being okay. As even if its considered an early death, it's not wrong to me. It's simply is the end, neither good nor bad.
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