Help I’m reaching the end of my rope

[punishedfox]

Genuinely
Idk how legible this is going to be because this is after like a week of just pure horrible mental exhaustion and crumbling or some shit
I'm tired and I just want to know if there is anything methods that are accessible and achievable for a 18 year old
I tried so desperately to ignore it all and just push through like every one says around me. But every single time I break down again it's wose and worse. I haven't stopped thinking about it since like 6th grade or so.
I just want a choice if all goes to shit
It's just getting harder to make excuses for my existence

 

[Ilostmytoast]

Eh ya I feel you it does suck but stuff I've been searching into is hanging specifically partial hanging though it's different for all with many pointing they've failed countless times It can still work might for you if you do go through with it I suggest researching so here's the thread
https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/how-to-hang-yourself.1183/

If you chose something else completely understandable hanging isn't for all
I do wish you get better if you decide not to go through with it best of wishes